Author : Enez Ensenia
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9781725684461
Total Pages : 194 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (844 download)
Book Synopsis My Pain, Fibromyalgia: My Prisoner of Pain by : Enez Ensenia
Download or read book My Pain, Fibromyalgia: My Prisoner of Pain written by Enez Ensenia and published by . This book was released on 2018-08-29 with total page 194 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In my book each chapter outlines, in my life, some difficult and at times humorous lessons learned from having Fibromyalgia. Struggling to even get out of bed is a daily struggle, yet if you don't get out of bed, there you will stay and fall into your very own 'prison.' I try to encourage others to see their struggles as of not being alone, but having others with the same struggles, that you are still a unique and wonderful person - but you have an unwanted 'gift' so to speak.I believe humor is one of the best medicines for all types of illnesses not just 'Fibro.' In the sense that humor helps you get through some of the darkest days; humor helped me and still does. I encourage us to embrace 'Fibro,' learn and research it until there's nothing else to learn. But life is about struggling - at the same time though - we need to try, above all else, to love who we are and not be defined of what (illness) we have.My personal gifts (I refuse to call them out as death sentences, it's bad enough you feel imprisoned) include suicidal thoughts. My first thought, I really don't know exactly what year or how old I was, but I just always remember wanting to end my life. If I can help one person cope or just be there to laugh with, or cry with, then my goal was met with honesty within myself and others reading my book. I discuss my struggle with suicide...which knows no enemy, in my opinion. I've sat for hours staring at a gun thinking: how, which way, will it hurt, will it make noise, a mess of my room...just many ways on how I could do it. I also think of my cat, will she miss me? I was never able to have children, she is my child. How my mother would kill me (figuratively speaking) for doing that and leaving her that way. My siblings, would they miss me a lot? So many questions and I could not even answer not a one.I talk about my marriage and how that deteriorated through the years before and after 'Fibro.' I expand on Fibro-Fog and Flare-ups. My personal experiences with both, it still amazes me that I'm still walking and talking about my "bestie" Fibro, for she has done me wrong for so many years. As I've stated, you embrace, you learn, you cope, you cannot give up; if you do then back in "prison" you will be and stay locked in there forever. I feel we are all worth the fight we have to give 'Fibro.' There are medications, self-help books, groups you can belong to either on social media or in person, I encourage one to find what best suits their needs. Their needs may change, as mine have, but always you have to be diligent and mindful of what's going on within your body.My last chapter I stress how not to see oneself as a burden to their families. Throughout the years I have felt that way and at times I catch myself feeling and thinking this way especially once my depression worsens. We cannot see ourselves as a burden to others; all that does is cause resentment and anger, we who suffer any chronic illness are better than that. We, who have this, have got to realize it's just part of us. Some have no symptoms after a few months or years; I personally suffer and worsen yearly, it's just how I'm made up, I suppose.As I state at the end of my book: Trust yourself the most, for you are the one who suffers. Be not the prisoner in this pain, be the free one that lives on.
