Things to Leave Behind

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Publisher : Penguin UK
ISBN 13 : 9385990373
Total Pages : 320 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (859 download)

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Book Synopsis Things to Leave Behind by : Namita Gokhale

Download or read book Things to Leave Behind written by Namita Gokhale and published by Penguin UK. This book was released on 2016-11-14 with total page 320 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A rich, panoramic historical novel shows you Kumaon and the Raj as you have never seen them It is 1856, in picturesque Kumaon. History has already begun its steady march. Six native women clad in black and scarlet pichauras huddle around Naineetal Lake, attempting to cleanse it of threatening new influences. For, these are the days of Upper Mall Road (for Europeans and their horses) and Lower Mall Road (‘for dogs, servants and other Indians’). And this is the story of feisty young Tilottama Dutt, whose uncle hangs when he protests the reigning order—and her daughter, Deoki, who will confront change as Indians, and as women. Things to Leave Behind brings alive the romance of the mixed legacy of British-Indian past. Full of the fascinating backstory of Naineetal and its unwilling entry into Indian history, throwing a shining light on the elemental confusion of caste, creed and culture, illuminated with painstaking detail, here is a fascinating historical epic—and Namita Gokhale’s most ambitious novel yet.

What We Leave Behind

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Publisher : Seven Stories Press
ISBN 13 : 1583229892
Total Pages : 519 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (832 download)

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Book Synopsis What We Leave Behind by : Derrick Jensen

Download or read book What We Leave Behind written by Derrick Jensen and published by Seven Stories Press. This book was released on 2011-01-04 with total page 519 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What We Leave Behind is a piercing, impassioned guide to living a truly responsible life on earth. Human waste, once considered a gift to the soil, has become toxic material that has broken the essential cycle of decay and regeneration. Here, award-winning author Derrick Jensen and activist Aric McBay weave historical analysis and devastatingly beautiful prose to remind us that life—human and nonhuman—will not go on unless we do everything we can to facilitate the most basic process on earth, the root of sustainability: one being's waste must always become another being’s food.

What I Leave Behind

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Publisher : Simon and Schuster
ISBN 13 : 1481476580
Total Pages : 211 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (814 download)

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Book Synopsis What I Leave Behind by : Alison McGhee

Download or read book What I Leave Behind written by Alison McGhee and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2018-05-15 with total page 211 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “An artful exercise in melancholy…Every reader will love openhearted Will.” —Booklist (starred review) “Haunting, introspective.” —Kirkus Reviews (starred review) “Emotionally raw…[A] piercing narrative.” —Publishers Weekly (starred review) “McGhee artfully illustrates the tangled web wherein grief intertwines with the mundane.” —BCCB After his dad dies of suicide, Will tries to overcome his own misery by secretly helping the people around him in this exquisitely crafted story made up of one hundred chapters of one hundred words each, by award-winning and bestselling author Alison McGhee. Sixteen-year-old Will spends most of his days the same way: Working at the Dollar Only store, trying to replicate his late father’s famous cornbread recipe, and walking the streets of Los Angeles. Will started walking after his father committed suicide, and three years later he hasn’t stopped. But there are some places Will can’t walk by: The blessings store with the chest of 100 Chinese blessings in the back, the bridge on Fourth Street where his father died, and his childhood friend Playa’s house. When Will learns Playa was raped at a party—a party he was at, where he saw Playa, and where he believes he could have stopped the worst from happening if he hadn’t left early—it spurs Will to stop being complacent in his own sadness and do some good in the world. He begins to leave small gifts for everyone in his life, from Superman the homeless guy he passes on his way to work, to the Little Butterfly Dude he walks by on the way home, to Playa herself. And it is through those acts of kindness that Will is finally able to push past his own trauma and truly begin to live his life again. Oh, and discover the truth about that cornbread.

All the Things We Leave Behind

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ISBN 13 : 9780864920416
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (24 download)

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Book Synopsis All the Things We Leave Behind by : Riel Nason

Download or read book All the Things We Leave Behind written by Riel Nason and published by . This book was released on 2016 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Shortlisted for the New Brunswick Book Award for Fiction A novel of absence and adolescence by the author of the award-winning The Town That Drowned. It's 1977. Seventeen-year-old Violet is left behind by her parents to manage their busy roadside antique stand for the summer. Her restless older brother, Bliss, has disappeared, leaving home without warning, and her parents are off searching for clues. Violet is haunted by her brother's absence while trying to cope with her new responsibilities. Between visiting a local hermit, who makes twig furniture for the shop, and finding a way to land the contents of the mysterious Vaughan estate, Violet acts out with her summer boyfriend, Dean, and wonders about the mysterious boneyard. But what really keeps her up at night are thoughts of Bliss's departure and the white deer, which only she has seen. All the Things We Leave Behind is about remembrance and attachment, about what we collect and what we leave behind. In this highly affecting novel, Nason explores the permeability of memory and the sometimes confusing bonds of human emotion.

The Things We Left Behind

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Publisher : WestBow Press
ISBN 13 : 1973616181
Total Pages : 140 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (736 download)

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Book Synopsis The Things We Left Behind by : Debra Allen Alford

Download or read book The Things We Left Behind written by Debra Allen Alford and published by WestBow Press. This book was released on 2018-02-14 with total page 140 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: While this book is being published as fiction, the very essence of the story is a true one. The gentleman this book is actually about felt that his sins were far too horrible to be forgiven. While the names and certain events have been altered in order to avoid sharing any inaccurate information, therefore making it fiction, he did, in fact, grow up in a small rural community in the south. The innocence of that idyllic childhood was shattered due to the draft during the Vietnam War. Then he struggled to rebuild his life from that point forward. However, he found that there was no returning to the things he left behind. The innocence of youth was forever lost. While he survived physically, although narrowly, any semblance of normal life was gone. From that point forward, he dealt with overwhelming guilt. Guilt for going and leaving loved ones behind, some he would never see again. Guilt for coming home and leaving his men behind, many whom would never make it home. Guilt for things he had to do during the terror that was an integral part of war. He tried to seek relief by rebuilding and helping as much as he could. He was, however, overwhelmed with the fear that nothing would ever be good enough to bring about forgiveness for his seemingly unthinkable sins. Like many who have been through such traumas, he suffered silently, and this took its toll. He was fortunate enough to have had many caring people who tried to help through the years. In the end, he was blessed to finally find the answer through one seemingly simple question that allowed him to find the peace he so desperately sought. His dying wish was that his story might help others.

All That You Leave Behind

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Publisher : Ballantine Books
ISBN 13 : 0399178988
Total Pages : 256 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (991 download)

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Book Synopsis All That You Leave Behind by : Erin Lee Carr

Download or read book All That You Leave Behind written by Erin Lee Carr and published by Ballantine Books. This book was released on 2019-04-09 with total page 256 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “A documentary filmmaker and daughter of the late, great New York Times columnist David Carr celebrates and wrestles with her father’s legacy in a raw, redemptive memoir.”—O: The Oprah Magazine “A breathtaking read . . . a testimony equal parts love and candor. David would have had it no other way.”—Ta-Nehisi Coates, bestselling author of Between the World and Me NAMED ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR BY GLAMOUR AND MARIE CLAIRE Dad: What will set you apart is not talent but will and a certain kind of humility. A willingness to let the world show you things that you play back as you grow as an artist. Talent is cheap. Me: OK I will ponder these things. I am a Carr. Dad: That should matter quite a bit, actually not the name but the guts of what that name means. A celebrated journalist, bestselling author (The Night of the Gun), and recovering addict, David Carr was in the prime of his career when he suffered a fatal collapse in the newsroom of The New York Times in 2015. Shattered by his death, his daughter Erin Lee Carr, at age twenty-seven an up-and-coming documentary filmmaker, began combing through the entirety of their shared correspondence—1,936 items in total—in search of comfort and support. What started as an exercise in grief quickly grew into an active investigation: Did her father’s writings contain the answers to the question of how to move forward in life and work without her biggest champion by her side? How could she fill the space left behind by a man who had come to embody journalistic integrity, rigor, and hard reporting, whose mentorship meant everything not just to her but to the many who served alongside him? All That You Leave Behind is a poignant coming-of-age story that offers a raw and honest glimpse into the multilayered relationship between a daughter and a father. Through this lens, Erin comes to understand her own workplace missteps, existential crises, and relationship fails. While daughter and father bond over their mutual addictions and challenges with sobriety, it is their powerful sense of work and family that comes to ultimately define them. This unique combination of Erin Lee Carr’s earnest prose and her father’s meaningful words offers a compelling read that shows us what it means to be vulnerable and lost, supported and found. It is a window into love, with all of its fierceness and frustrations. “Thank you, Erin, for this beautiful book. Now I am going to steal all of your father’s remarkable advice and tell my kids I thought of it.”—Judd Apatow

What You Leave Behind

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Publisher : Simon and Schuster
ISBN 13 : 0743420853
Total Pages : 224 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 (434 download)

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Book Synopsis What You Leave Behind by : Diane Carey

Download or read book What You Leave Behind written by Diane Carey and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2000-09-22 with total page 224 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A powerful novel in the classic tradition of All Good Things... Seven years ago, Benjamin Sisko took command of an alien space station newly christened Deep Space Nine™. There he met Kira Nerys, Odo, Miles O'Brien, Quark, Worf, Julian Bashir, and many others who would touch his life deeply. He also found a new and troubling destiny as the long-awaited Emissary to the mysterious wormhole entities known as the Prophets. Now, after years of triumph and tragedy, and a cataclysmic war that rocked the entire Alpha Quadrant, Captain Sisko and his valiant crew face their final challenge. No one is safe, nothing is certain, and not even the Prophets can predict the ultimate fate of Deep Space Nine!

The Things We Leave Behind

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Publisher : Oliver-Heber books
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Total Pages : 25 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Book Synopsis The Things We Leave Behind by : Tanya Anne Crosby

Download or read book The Things We Leave Behind written by Tanya Anne Crosby and published by Oliver-Heber books. This book was released on with total page 25 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Zoe Rutherford has come to the end of her rope. Her relationship with Chris has reached the breaking point and it is time to leave. But can she leave? And if she does, what is she willing to leave behind? This stunning short story, the prequel to Tanya Anne Crosby’s remarkable new novel, THE GIRL WHO STAYED, is tense, poignant, and deeply satisfying – exactly what readers have come to expect from this New York Times bestselling author. The Girl Who Stayed Book 1: The Things We Leave Behind Book 2: The Girl Who Stayed

Success Is What You Leave Behind

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Publisher : Elsevier
ISBN 13 : 0124172245
Total Pages : 198 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (241 download)

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Book Synopsis Success Is What You Leave Behind by : Cato Laurencin

Download or read book Success Is What You Leave Behind written by Cato Laurencin and published by Elsevier. This book was released on 2021-10-21 with total page 198 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Success Is What You Leave Behind: Fostering Leadership and Innovation reveals the 14 proven practices that Dr. Cato T. Laurencin has come to rely upon in building his distinguished career as a renowned orthopedic surgeon, biomedical engineer, educator and mentor. Writing with a personal voice, Dr. Laurencin shares stories from his own experiences to reflect the principles he has learned and how one can utilize them in their own career. Among other topics, he discusses how to be a leader, handling challenging moments, fostering creativity and innovation, using skills and successes to help others, and what he's learned from some of the giants in the world of the life sciences and medicine. Shows effective methods for elevating the reader's own capabilities and mentoring others to do the same Offers guidance on how to consider hurdles and approach them so that you can move forward Features insights on fostering innovative ideas and driving change to produce new outcomes

What You Left Behind

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Publisher : Sourcebooks, Inc.
ISBN 13 : 1492608750
Total Pages : 368 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (926 download)

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Book Synopsis What You Left Behind by : Jessica Verdi

Download or read book What You Left Behind written by Jessica Verdi and published by Sourcebooks, Inc.. This book was released on 2015-08-04 with total page 368 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Jessica Verdi, the author of My Life After Now and The Summer I Wasn't Me, returns with a heartbreaking and poignant novel of grief and guilt that reads like Nicholas Sparks for teens. It's all Ryden's fault. If he hadn't gotten Meg pregnant, she would have never stopped her chemo treatments and would still be alive. Instead he's failing fatherhood one dirty diaper at a time. And it's not like he's had time to grieve while struggling to care for their infant daughter, start his senior year, and earn the soccer scholarship he needs to go to college. The one person who makes Ryden feel like his old self is Joni. She's fun and energetic-and doesn't know he has a baby. But the more time they spend together, the harder it becomes to keep his two worlds separate. Finding one of Meg's journals only stirs up old emotions. Ryden's convinced Meg left other notebooks for him to find, some message to help his new life make sense. But how is he going to have a future if he can't let go of the past? "Ryden's story is a moving illustration of how sometimes you have to let go of the life you planned to embrace the life you've been given. A strong, character-driven story that teen readers will love."-Carrie Arcos, National Book Award Finalist for Out of Reach

Leave the World Behind

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Publisher : HarperCollins
ISBN 13 : 0062667653
Total Pages : 253 pages
Book Rating : 4.0/5 (626 download)

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Book Synopsis Leave the World Behind by : Rumaan Alam

Download or read book Leave the World Behind written by Rumaan Alam and published by HarperCollins. This book was released on 2020-10-06 with total page 253 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Now a Netflix film starring Julia Roberts, Mahershala Ali, Ethan Hawke, Myha'la, Farrah Mackenzie, Charlie Evans and Kevin Bacon. Written for the Screen and Directed by Sam Esmail. Executive Producers Barack and Michelle Obama, Tonia Davis, Daniel M. Stillman, Nick Krishnamurthy, Rumaan Alam A Read with Jenna Today Show Book Club Pick! Finalist for the 2020 National Book Award in Fiction One of Barack Obama's Summer Reads A Best Book of the Year From: The Washington Post * Time * NPR * Elle * Esquire * Kirkus * Library Journal * The Chicago Public Library * The New York Public Library * BookPage * The Globe and Mail * EW.com * The LA Times * USA Today * InStyle * The New Yorker * AARP * Publisher's Lunch * LitHub * Book Marks * Electric Literature * Brooklyn Based * The Boston Globe A magnetic novel about two families, strangers to each other, who are forced together on a long weekend gone terribly wrong. From the bestselling author of Rich and Pretty comes a suspenseful and provocative novel keenly attuned to the complexities of parenthood, race, and class. Leave the World Behind explores how our closest bonds are reshaped—and unexpected new ones are forged—in moments of crisis. Amanda and Clay head out to a remote corner of Long Island expecting a vacation: a quiet reprieve from life in New York City, quality time with their teenage son and daughter, and a taste of the good life in the luxurious home they’ve rented for the week. But a late-night knock on the door breaks the spell. Ruth and G. H. are an older couple—it’s their house, and they’ve arrived in a panic. They bring the news that a sudden blackout has swept the city. But in this rural area—with the TV and internet now down, and no cell phone service—it’s hard to know what to believe. Should Amanda and Clay trust this couple—and vice versa? What happened back in New York? Is the vacation home, isolated from civilization, a truly safe place for their families? And are they safe from one other?

The Things We Lose, the Things We Leave Behind

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Publisher : New Island Books
ISBN 13 : 9781848402676
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (26 download)

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Book Synopsis The Things We Lose, the Things We Leave Behind by : Billy O'Callaghan

Download or read book The Things We Lose, the Things We Leave Behind written by Billy O'Callaghan and published by New Island Books. This book was released on 2013 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Thirteen short Stories that explore how people in crisis can pick up the shattered pieces of their lives and find among them some glint of worth.

The Girl Who Stayed

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ISBN 13 : 9781648390098
Total Pages : 306 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (9 download)

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Book Synopsis The Girl Who Stayed by : Tanya Anne Crosby

Download or read book The Girl Who Stayed written by Tanya Anne Crosby and published by . This book was released on 2020-06 with total page 306 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "A beautifully written, page-turning novel packed with emotion." - #1 New York Times bestselling author Barbara Freethy Zoe Rutherford wasn't sure what she was expecting when she returned to Sullivan's Island. The house on Sullivan's hadn't represented home to her in decades. It was the place where she endured her father's cruelty. It was the place where her mother closed herself off from the world. It was the place where her sister disappeared. But now that her parents are gone, Zoe needs to return to the house, to close it down and prepare it for sale. She intends to get this done as quickly as possible and get on with her life, even though that life seems clouded by her past, both distant and recent. But what she discovers when she gets there is far beyond her imagining and will change her in profound ways. THE GIRL WHO STAYED is a remarkable exploration of the soul by a writer with a rare talent for reaching into the hearts of her characters and her readers, a novel of transformation that will leave you moved and breathless.

Don't Let the Stuff You Leave Behind Destroy Your Family

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ISBN 13 : 9781942298007
Total Pages : 36 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (98 download)

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Book Synopsis Don't Let the Stuff You Leave Behind Destroy Your Family by : Kenneth G. Hansen

Download or read book Don't Let the Stuff You Leave Behind Destroy Your Family written by Kenneth G. Hansen and published by . This book was released on 2014-10-01 with total page 36 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Yes, estate planning is an awkward thing to think about, but one you have an obligation to do. Don't Let the Stuff You Leave Behind Destroy Your Family creates a plan so that everything you've worked to achieve over your lifetime doesn't become the ruin of your family. This plan is about fairness and love, ensuring that each child receives equal value from the things you leave behind. Instead of tearing your family apart, this book will help you create a plan that lets your children and grandchildren understand the love you have for them, because parents never outlive their obligation to their children.

The Gifts They Leave Behind

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Publisher : Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
ISBN 13 : 9781482394214
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (942 download)

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Book Synopsis The Gifts They Leave Behind by : April L. Rohde

Download or read book The Gifts They Leave Behind written by April L. Rohde and published by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform. This book was released on 2013-03-11 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This is a story about one woman's journey through grief and the messages she received after her husband's passing. This story reminds us that although our loved ones are not here physically, spiritually we are always connected. Heaven is where love is and you are part of their heaven. They can and do send gifts. Are you recognizing these gifts and opening them?

The Things We Leave Unfinished

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Publisher : Entangled: Amara
ISBN 13 : 1682815889
Total Pages : 455 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (828 download)

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Book Synopsis The Things We Leave Unfinished by : Rebecca Yarros

Download or read book The Things We Leave Unfinished written by Rebecca Yarros and published by Entangled: Amara. This book was released on 2021-02-23 with total page 455 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Told in alternating timelines, THE THINGS WE LEAVE UNFINISHED examines the risks we take for love, the scars too deep to heal, and the endings we can’t bring ourselves to see coming. Twenty-eight-year-old Georgia Stanton has to start over after she gave up almost everything in a brutal divorce—the New York house, the friends, and her pride. Now back home at her late great-grandmother’s estate in Colorado, she finds herself face-to-face with Noah Harrison, the bestselling author of a million books where the cover is always people nearly kissing. He’s just as arrogant in person as in interviews, and she’ll be damned if the good-looking writer of love stories thinks he’s the one to finish her grandmother’s final novel...even if the publisher swears he’s the perfect fit. Noah is at the pinnacle of his career. With book and movie deals galore, there isn’t much the “golden boy” of modern fiction hasn’t accomplished. But he can’t walk away from what might be the best book of the century—the one his idol, Scarlett Stanton, left unfinished. Coming up with a fitting ending for the legendary author is one thing, but dealing with her beautiful, stubborn, cynical great-granddaughter, Georgia, is quite another. But as they read Scarlett’s words in both the manuscript and her box of letters, they start to realize why Scarlett never finished the book—it’s based on her real-life romance with a World War II pilot, and the ending isn’t a happy one. Georgia knows all too well that love never works out, and while the chemistry and connection between her and Noah is undeniable, she’s as determined as ever to learn from her great-grandmother’s mistakes—even if it means destroying Noah’s career.

What We Leave Behind

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Publisher : Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
ISBN 13 : 9781466236318
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (363 download)

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Book Synopsis What We Leave Behind by : Rochelle B. Weinstein

Download or read book What We Leave Behind written by Rochelle B. Weinstein and published by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform. This book was released on 2012-02-15 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: *A USA TODAY Bestseller*It is said that our lives are a sum total of the choices we make, which inevitably leaves us to wonder: what if? What if we had the chance to go back and live what could have been? What We Leave Behind hones in on the fleeting moments and stand-out events that irrevocably change our lives. The book chronicles the life and emotional growth of Jessica Parker as she frees herself from the past and moves forward with her future. At sixteen, Jessica is managing the emotional trauma of her father's death while surrendering to the profound pain of a failed first love. Jonas Levy, a twenty-two-year-old medical student, has abruptly walked out of Jessica's life after an intense summer romance, and the wounds are still raw. Is it possible to ever forget the boy you first gave your heart to? Jessica eventually moves on, and in her twenties, becomes a successful music supervisor in Los Angeles. She marries film producer, Marty Tauber, starts a family, and appears to have it all, until things slowly begin to unravel. The marriage struggles through a miscarriage and becomes harder and harder to sustain. With an unexpected phone call from New York, a secret from Jessica's past comes to light. As the rippling effects of her betrayal emerge, Jessica finds herself caught in the firestorm of long-hidden emotional trauma. Thrust into a modern day moral and ethical dilemma, Jessica must face the pain of her past or lose everything she holds dear. Will she be able to reconcile old feelings in time to salvage her marriage? An honest, tender, and poignant portrayal of love in its many forms, this heart wrenching novel will resonate with any woman who has questioned her past and wondered what could have been.