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To All the Footballers I Loved Before

Author : C.M. Kars
Publisher : C.M. Kars
ISBN 13 : 1990603025
Total Pages : 358 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (96 download)

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Download or read book To All the Footballers I Loved Before written by C.M. Kars and published by C.M. Kars. This book was released on 2022-06-21 with total page 358 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: All the footballers a fangirl has loved in the past…don’t compare to the footballer of her dreams. When Maddie Chase, a fangirl and pro footballer, gets injured before her debut in the season opener for the world-renown Southgate FC, she enlists the help of a fellow injured comrade-in-arms, the phenom player Jesse Windmeier. She just didn’t expect him to be a giant pain in her ass, or distract her from getting back on the field with his talent and good-looks. When Jesse realizes that training Maddie has quickly become the highlight of his day and wants to spend more time with her, Maddie doesn’t know what to do. Her life has always been about achieving her one goal - playing pro and winning all the accolades, and Jesse...Jesse's become something of a distraction. Will Maddie make it back on the field, or will her heart lead her astray? ******************************************************************************************************************************** KEYWORDS: sports romance, soccer romance, European football romance, Ted Lasso Feels, enemies-to-lovers, pro-female athlete heroine, pro-male athlete hero, soccer jargon, contemporary romance, fangirl romance, choosing between your dream and love, workplace romance, enemies to friends to lovers, virgin romance, new adult romance, new adult romance after college, angsty romance, angst, injured heroine, injured hero, forced proximity, evolution of the relationship, choose between soccer or love, training montage, training as foreplay, easter eggs, references, She's the Man vibes. For fans of Penny Reid, Cassie Mae, Mary Frame, Olivia Dade, Elle Kennedy, Mariana Zapata, Sariah Wilson, Helen Hoang, Emily Henry, Ali Hazelwood, and Christina Lauren.

To All the Footballers I Loved Before

Author : C M Kars
Publisher :
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 262 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 (25 download)

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Download or read book To All the Footballers I Loved Before written by C M Kars and published by . This book was released on 2021-03-12 with total page 262 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: All the footballers a fangirl has loved in the past...don't compare to the footballer of her dreams. When Maddie Chase, a fangirl and pro footballer, gets injured before her debut for the world-renown Southgate FC, she enlists the help of a fellow injured comrade-in-arms, the phenom player Jesse Windmeier, to get her back on her feet. Maddie just didn't expect him to be a giant pain in her ass when they train together, or distract her from getting back on the field with his talent and good looks. When Jesse realizes that training Maddie has quickly become the highlight of his day and wants to spend more time with her, Maddie doesn't know what to do. Her life has always been about achieving her one goal - playing pro and winning all of the accolades. And Jesse...Jesse's become something of a distraction. Can Maddie strike a balance between getting back on the field and whatever is budding between her and Jesse? Or will she turn her back on him for her name in shining lights?

Fangirling Over You

Author : C.M. Kars
Publisher : C.M. Kars
ISBN 13 : 1990603009
Total Pages : 254 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (96 download)

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Download or read book Fangirling Over You written by C.M. Kars and published by C.M. Kars. This book was released on 2022-04-19 with total page 254 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A fangirl's heart is caught between the man of her dreams...and the actor who plays him. Aria Larsen compares every guy she's ever met with the fictional character that's stolen her heart. When she gets the opportunity to meet the actor who plays him in real life, she can't help but feel disappointed, especially knowing that Ayden Stone finds part of the fandom…distasteful. Never in her wildest imagination did Aria expect the one and only Ayden Stone to be interested in her, and even though he looks like the man of her dreams, Ayden's nothing at all like the character he plays. When Ayden turns out to be actually interested in her, Aria's at a loss. What is she supposed to do with a living, breathing man with real flaws and real expectations of his own? Especially when he's absolutely nothing like the character she's fallen in love with. Can Aria's fangirl heart take a chance on someone who can actually love her back? KEYWORDS: contemporary romance, new adult romance after college, after college romance, nerdy girl romance, nerdy heroine, fangirl romance, fangirl heroine, fictional boyfriends are not the best boyfriends, TV star romance, celebrity romance, strangers to lovers, a fangirl always gets her man, C.M. Kars, fangirling over you, fangirl of a TV show, Leviathan, comic-con, meet cute at a comic con, celebrity romance between a TV star and a fangirl, easter eggs, references, contemporary new adult romance, actor hero, nerdy heroine. For fans of Penny Raid, Cassie Mae and Amy Daws.

Cuffing and Loving

Author : C.M. Kars
Publisher : C.M. Kars
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 218 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Cuffing and Loving written by C.M. Kars and published by C.M. Kars. This book was released on 2023-01-17 with total page 218 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When a bartender decides to finally grow up and get her life together, the last thing she needs is a quiet (and handsome) bouncer with an adorable puppy to derail her plans. Things are about to get cuffed. Izzy Prewitt has always been the Prewitt wild child. She doesn't have a career yet, despite being in her mid-twenties, and she's been tending bar ever since she was of legal age. When she finally decides that she's going to become that better version of herself that her family can be proud of, the last thing she needs is to get embroiled in helping a coworker and his puppy. Izzy can tell that Callum's vibe is all about putting his head down and working hard, but Luna the puppy has other plans. Before Izzy knows it, she's invested in the pup's health and welfare, even if Callum seems to think of her as the consummate party girl that always gets her way. When Izzy spends Valentine's with Callum, she's wondering if something serious with him is up her alley, if Callum sees a future where they're both together. Except Izzy's always been the Prewitt Party Girl, and a serious relationship is something she's never really experienced. Can Callum be her first? Cuffing season (n.): the period between October and Valentine’s Day where single people tend to look for short-term relationships for the holidays. Keywords: holiday romance, Cuffing Season romance, Cuffing Season, contemporary romance, Valentine's day romance, strangers to friends to lover, puppy named Luna, dog named Luna, the dog is happy, party girl heroine, bad boy hero, falling in love for the firs time, sweet romance, falling in love, messy heroine, grumpy hero, sunshine heroine, grumpy x sunshine trope, grumpy x sunshine, cozy romance, back to school in your twenties, college(ish) romance. For fans of Penny Reid, Cassie Mae, Mary Frame, Olivia Dade, Elle Kennedy, Mariana Zapata, Sariah Wilson, Helen Hoang, Emily Henry, Ali Hazelwood, and Christina Lauren.

Football and the Decline of Britain

Author : J. Walvin
Publisher : Springer
ISBN 13 : 134918196X
Total Pages : 145 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (491 download)

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Download or read book Football and the Decline of Britain written by J. Walvin and published by Springer. This book was released on 1986-04-28 with total page 145 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In the wake of the Bradford and Brussels football disasters in 1985, football in England was subjected to detailed scrutiny and criticism. Critics - of all sorts and persuasions - saw in those terrible events, especially the Brussels riot, evidence of the broader problems afflicting British (not merely English) life. Football, which had once represented so much of what was once considered good - fair- play, team play and sportsmanship - was now discussed as a major national problem. To most critics, at home and abroad, football came to represent a nation in decline, characterised by organised violence, drunkenness, political extremism and a host of related social problems. It was widely assumed that football - but especially those English fans who travelled abroad - was the epitome of what had gone wrong with life in urban Britain. It is understandable that those disasters would lead to heated and emotional argument. But many of the explanations of the events culminating in the disasters appear less convincing when scrutinised more closely. This book tries to examine not only the alleged roots of those violent incidents, but also to locate the problems afflicting the national game within the context of the broad social and economic changes which have transformed British life in the past generation. The book is as much an analysis of recent British social history as it is about the game of football.

How to Be a Footballer

Author : Peter Crouch
Publisher : Random House
ISBN 13 : 1473561213
Total Pages : 290 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (735 download)

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Download or read book How to Be a Footballer written by Peter Crouch and published by Random House. This book was released on 2018-09-06 with total page 290 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: 'Very funny on almost every page, wonderfully self-deprecating and very sharp on the ludicrous behaviour of the modern player' - Sunday Times 'The funniest man in British sport' - Metro **A Sunday Times Sports Book of the Year** **Shortlisted for the National Book Awards** **Longlisted for the Telegraph Sports Book Awards Autobiography of the Year** You become a footballer because you love football. And then you are a footballer, and you're suddenly in the strangest, most baffling world of all. A world where one team-mate comes to training in a bright red suit with matching top-hat, cane and glasses, without any actual glass in them, and another has so many sports cars they forget they have left a Porsche at the train station. Even when their surname is incorporated in the registration plate. So walk with me into the dressing-room, to find out which players refuse to touch a football before a game, to discover why a load of millionaires never have any shower-gel, and to hear what Cristiano Ronaldo says when he looks at himself in the mirror. We will go into post-match interviews, make fools of ourselves on social media and try to ensure that we never again pay £250 for a haircut that should have cost a tenner. We'll be coached and cajoled by Harry Redknapp, upset Rafa Benitez and be soothed by the sound of an accordion played by Sven-Goran Eriksson's assistant Tord Grip. There will be some very bad music and some very bad decisions. I am Peter Crouch. This is How To Be A Footballer. Shall we?

Between the Lines: Navigating the World of Japanese Football

Author : Sean Carroll
Publisher : Sean Carroll
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 124 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Between the Lines: Navigating the World of Japanese Football written by Sean Carroll and published by Sean Carroll. This book was released on 2023-11-13 with total page 124 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In the past 30 years football in Japan has evolved at an unprecedented rate. From having no professional league and never appearing at a World Cup, the J.League is now one of the most keenly followed, best run, and eagerly scouted divisions in the world, the men’s national team is established as a regular challenger at international tournaments, and the nation’s women have enjoyed even greater success on the global stage. The positives are plentiful, but not everything is perfect with the beautiful game in the land of the rising sun. In Between The Lines, Sean Carroll takes you behind the scenes of the Japanese game, speaking to top players, coaches, and other insiders – including three former Samurai Blue managers – about their experiences of football in the country. These conversations form a multi-layered appraisal – and occasional critique – of the sport and nation at large, with Carroll’s in-depth study asking where Japanese football finds itself, how it got there, and where a nation of such vast potential can go next.

The World's Greatest Football Players

Author : Matt Doeden
Publisher : Capstone
ISBN 13 : 1429639245
Total Pages : 34 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (296 download)

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Download or read book The World's Greatest Football Players written by Matt Doeden and published by Capstone. This book was released on 2010 with total page 34 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Describes the achievements and career statistics of football's greatest stars.

Winning at All Costs

Author : John Foot
Publisher : Bold Type Books
ISBN 13 : 1568586523
Total Pages : 626 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (685 download)

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Download or read book Winning at All Costs written by John Foot and published by Bold Type Books. This book was released on 2007-08-24 with total page 626 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The 2006 World Cup final between Italy and France was a down-and-dirty game, marred by French superstar Zidane's head-butting of Italian defender Materazzi. But viewers were also exposed to the poetry, force, and excellence of the Italian game; as operatic as Verdi and as cunning as Machiavelli, it seemed to open a window into the Italian soul. John Foot's epic history shows what makes Italian soccer so unique. Mixing serious analysis and comic storytelling, Foot describes its humble origins in northern Italy in the 1890s to its present day incarnation where soccer is the national civic religion. A story that is reminiscent of Gangs of New York and A Clockwork Orange, Foot shows how the Italian game -- like its political culture -- has been overshadowed by big business, violence, conspiracy, and tragedy, how demagogues like Benito Mussolini and Silvio Berlusconi have used the game to further their own political ambitions. But Winning at All Costs also celebrates the sweet moments -- the four World Cup victories, the success of Juventus, Inter Milan, AC Milan, the role soccer played in the resistance to Nazism, and the great managers and players who show that Italian soccer is as irresistible as Italy itself.

Don't Be Stupid, Idiot - Helping Idiots Be Less Idiotic

Author : Yann Somou
Publisher : Yann Somou
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 256 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Don't Be Stupid, Idiot - Helping Idiots Be Less Idiotic written by Yann Somou and published by Yann Somou. This book was released on 2023-01-29 with total page 256 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Do you think the world is going to shit? And that manners are being thrown out the window? And that common sense and common courtesy are becoming uncommon? And that you are now dealing with idiots that bit too often? You are not alone. We are all collectively treating each other worse than ever before. We talk to each other like dickheads. We drive like wankers. We leave piss on the toilet seat. We shake hands as if they’ve turned into floppy fish. We treat money as the be-all and end-all. Yann thinks this is down to us slowly losing touch with our own humanity. In other words, we care more about ourselves than the person next to us. Sure, capitalism and technology are partly to blame. But at the end of the day, if we don’t start treating each other a little better, we’re all truly fucked. There’s no way in hell we’ll be able to work together long enough to resolve the catastrophic problems coming our way. To that end, ‘don’t be stupid, idiot’ is chock full of 120+ hilarious, sweary, sarcastic, hard-hitting rants about everyday things that everyday idiots do, with quasi-serious, tongue in cheek exercises to help idiots be less idiotic. Each rant also has a QR code or link to share with that idiot of a friend who needs to read it! Rants include: Queue cutting Cancel culture Buying rounds Splitting the bill Holding the door open Ignoring reserved seating Treating pets as humans Tailgating Reclining plane seats Taking the mick Conspiracy theorists & many more! No one is innocent of being an idiot, including you. It is impossible to read this book and not realise at least one or two ways in which you’ve started to not give a shit about your fellow human. Yann hopes that, instead of being a little bitch about it, you’ll use all the reality checks you’ll receive to become a better person who is more aware of how their actions affect others. Entertainment: Guaranteed Fucks Given: Zero Legitimate Reviews “Brilliant!! But it can’t go on our best seller’s list because most of our readers are idiots” – Some shit newspaper “Bought for my idiot friend. Was a prick, still is but at least he knows it now!!” – An idiot “The perfect stupid gift for my boyfriend/husband/dad/brother!! They can be a right wanker!” – Wanker-loving idiot Get the book now, you muppet. Yann doesn’t care whether you buy it as a Secret Santa piss-take for colleagues, a really stupid gift for Christmas, a birthday present for people you don't like, for bloody Mother’s and Father’s day, or just because you like books taking the mick. Just buy the thing and start your journey towards being less of a prick. Still don’t know if ‘don’t be stupid, idiot’ is for you? If you enjoyed Mark Manson’s, ‘The subtle art of not giving a f*ck’, Laura Clery’s, ‘Idiots’, Thomas Erikson’s, ‘Surrounded by idiots’ or Karl Pilkington’s, ‘An idiot abroad’, you’ll love this! You’ll also feel right at home if you relate to the logic and pull no punches style of outspoken people like Ricky Gervais, Jeremy Clarkson, Piers Morgan and James Haskell.

The Secret Player

Author : Anonymous
Publisher : Headline
ISBN 13 : 0755364376
Total Pages : 214 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 (553 download)

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Download or read book The Secret Player written by Anonymous and published by Headline. This book was released on 2013-08-15 with total page 214 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In the vein of Hotel Babylon and Confessions of a GP, The Secret Player will fascinate footballs fans with its wealth of insider knowledge and willingness to talk, albeit anonymously, about the inner workings of the game. Based on the hugely popular 'The Player' columns in FourFourTwo magazine, the book gives a warts-and-all insight into the daily life of professional footballers. Month by month, it chronicles the oscillating rhythms of the season, from the trudge of pre-season to the 'squeaky-bum time' of promotion and relegation. The player himself has played at all levels of English football - from Premier League to a season of non-League - and represented England.

A Culture of Silence

Author : Jason Mitchell
Publisher : Lulu.com
ISBN 13 : 1291012109
Total Pages : 123 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (91 download)

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Download or read book A Culture of Silence written by Jason Mitchell and published by Lulu.com. This book was released on 2012-07 with total page 123 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In 2005, while researching the implications of the Civil Partnerships Act, HM Treasury and the Department of Trade and Industry concluded that 6%% of the population of the United Kingdom should be classed as gay; one in every 16.6 people and an estimated 3.5 million people in total. As of 2012, there are over 4,000 professional footballers currently playing the game in England alone. Despite this, there are currently no openly gay professional footballers in the country. However, to suggest that this issue is exclusive to English football would be drastically wide of the mark. In actual fact, this complete lack of openly gay professional players can be observed throughout all of the top professional football leagues across the world. 'A Culture of Silence' tells the story of football's problematic relationship with homosexuality and of the homophobia that, unquestionably, still plagues the sport.

Feet of the Chameleon

Author : Ian Hawkey
Publisher : Portico
ISBN 13 : 1909396060
Total Pages : 216 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (93 download)

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Download or read book Feet of the Chameleon written by Ian Hawkey and published by Portico. This book was released on 2012-11-30 with total page 216 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Winner of the Best Football Book at the British Sports Book Awards and shortlisted for the William Hill Sports Book of The Year 2009 'Written with warmth and understanding, the book for which African football has been crying out.' FourFourTwo Featuring a new foreword by the author, Feet of the Chameleon has been newly released in digital format to coincide with 29th African Cup of Nations in January 2013. A comprehensive study of African football, Ian Hawkey traces the development of the world’s favourite sport through the tangled history and complex social and political life of this fascinating continent. Drawing on a range of sources, including interviews conducted with individuals involved in all levels of the African game, his own extensive experience and years of research, Ian Hawkey, international football correspondent for the Sunday Times, has crafted a unique and remarkable book to satisfy the surge of interest in African football. Engagingly written and comprehensively researched, drawing on a range of accounts from those at grass-roots level through to the very top tiers of African football, Feet of the Chameleon is a compelling mixture of analysis and insight that delves deep into the history of the game in a continent fragmented by history, language and politics. Ian Hawkey is a meticulous and knowledgeable guide to this complex subject, and he has produced a timely and entertaining study of African football’s colourful history, players, supporters and legends.

The Football Men

Author : Simon Kuper
Publisher : Simon and Schuster
ISBN 13 : 0857201611
Total Pages : 400 pages
Book Rating : 4.8/5 (572 download)

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Download or read book The Football Men written by Simon Kuper and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2011-05-12 with total page 400 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The great footballers and coaches are rarely glimpsed from up close. They shield themselves from the tabloids, hide their personalities behind professionalism, and in the words of the cliché, 'do their talking on the pitch'. This book gets up close to them. The Football Menis not a series of celebrity profiles, and it doesn't attempt to unearth secrets in the players' private lives. Rather, it portrays these men as three-dimensional human beings. It describes their upbringings, the football cultures they grew up in, the way they play, and the baggage that they bring to their relationships at work. This multimillion-pound, multinational world is mostly inhabited by ordinary men. The profiles in this book are sometimes funny, but never breathless or sensational. Some of the profiles in this book are based on interviews; others are the results of time the author spent with that person; sometimes the profile is a story of a country. All are fascinating and shed light on their subject to reveal things you wouldn't expect. From one of the great sports writers of our time this is a penetrating and surprising collection of articles on the figures that have defined the modern sporting world.

The youth elite football players

Author : Thomas Rostgaard Andersen
Publisher : Frontiers Media SA
ISBN 13 : 2832547117
Total Pages : 141 pages
Book Rating : 4.8/5 (325 download)

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Download or read book The youth elite football players written by Thomas Rostgaard Andersen and published by Frontiers Media SA. This book was released on 2024-04-01 with total page 141 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:

The Book of Football Quotations

Author : Phil Shaw
Publisher : Random House
ISBN 13 : 1446458903
Total Pages : 576 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (464 download)

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Download or read book The Book of Football Quotations written by Phil Shaw and published by Random House. This book was released on 2011-04-30 with total page 576 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The greatest football quotations collection ever, now in its ninth edition. This compilation includes quotes from everyone – Shakespeare to Suarez, Camus to Cantona, Busby to Beckham – who has made an apt, pithy or comical comment about football. And not just footballers and managers either – fans, pundits, groundsmen, directors and wives all get to have their say too. Every subject is covered, from tactical debates to changing lifestyles, to produce a sometimes hilarious and always thought-provoking commentary on the game. ‘My players are always the best players in the world, even if they aren’t’ - José Mourinho ‘He was a quiet man, Eric Cantona, but he was a man of few words’ - David Beckham ‘Sometimes when you aim for the stars you hit the moon’ - Ian Holloway

The Secret Footballer: What Goes on Tour

Author : The Secret Footballer
Publisher : Random House
ISBN 13 : 1473543398
Total Pages : 352 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (735 download)

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Download or read book The Secret Footballer: What Goes on Tour written by The Secret Footballer and published by Random House. This book was released on 2017-05-04 with total page 352 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Since his first book was published in 2012, The Secret Footballer has been able to take the reader behind the scenes of footballers' lives like no other player has been able, or will ever be able, to do. Anonymity has been a potent weapon in revealing the real world of football stars, and five years on, he has now penned the work that all his fellow professionals have been urging him to do from the start, The Secret Footballer: What Goes on Tour. And it isn't going to stay on tour any more... From Marbella and Ibiza to Dubai and Las Vegas, The Secret Footballer lays bare the worst, most embarrassing and most hilarious excesses of these fit and mostly fickle young men whose million-pound salaries, to use his own words, 'open up a host of recreational opportunities'. Fuelled by rampaging desires for sex, drugs, booze and rock'n'roll, these footballers think up ever more extreme ways of splashing the cash, and needless to say, it doesn't always end well...