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From Living Hell to Living Well

Author : Heidi Jennings
Publisher : Heidi Jennings
ISBN 13 : 9781922597991
Total Pages : 200 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (979 download)

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Download or read book From Living Hell to Living Well written by Heidi Jennings and published by Heidi Jennings. This book was released on 2021-09-02 with total page 200 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Are you stuck in a living hell with your health? Are you tired of going around in circles trying to find a solution? Imagine being able to bounce out of bed in the morning with a clear head, an abundance of energy and a happy state of mind. Picture yourself living inside a body that is the perfect weight for you and functions exactly as it should. Wouldn't you love to experience that kind of vibrant health and wellbeing and the freedom it would bring? The revolutionary blueprint for health developed by Heidi and Steve Jennings is the life-changing solution you've been searching for. Forget the pills, potions, fads and gimmicks that only lead to despair. Through the five pillars of health, you can experience the sublime state of being you deserve. It's straightforward, sensible and sustainable - and most importantly, it actually works. If you are suffering from chronic pain or inflammation, anxiety, depression, stubborn body fat, autoimmune dysfunction, menopause symptoms or sleep issues - or any other condition that lowers your quality of life and prevents you from being your best self - this book is a must-read for you. It's time to put your hands back on the steering wheel, take control of your health and live a life you truly love.

Raising Hell, Living Well

Author : Jessica Elefante
Publisher : Ballantine Books
ISBN 13 : 0593500563
Total Pages : 385 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (935 download)

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Download or read book Raising Hell, Living Well written by Jessica Elefante and published by Ballantine Books. This book was released on 2023-10-10 with total page 385 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Part cultural criticism, part rueful confessional, a reformed brand strategist brings to light the impact of influence on us and our society and offers an escape in this ironically persuasive case for not being so easily influenced anymore. “Jessica Elefante practices what she preaches by rising above complaints to confront modern, twisted problems right in the face.”—Jaron Lanier, bestselling author of Ten Arguments for Deleting Your Social Media Accounts Right Now We live in a world that is under the influence. Our lives are being choreographed by forces that want something from us. Everything from ingrained family values to mind-altering algorithms create our foundations, warp how we see the world, manipulate our decisions, and dictate our beliefs. Yet rarely do we question these everyday influences of our modern times even as we go further down the path of unwell, unhappy, and unhinged. A high-spirited exploration through the troublesome influences of our world, Raising Hell, Living Well, Jessica Elefante’s eye-opening debut, follows one bullshit artist’s journey, from small-time salesperson to award-winning corporate strategist to founder of the digital wellbeing movement Folk Rebellion, in coming to terms with how she was wielding influence—and the forces she was under herself. With whip-smart writing and wry humor, Elefante’s collection of essays is a head-trip through her misadventures. From explaining productivity as a symptom of the influence of capitalism to how the wellness industry makes us feel more unwell or our unquestioning participation in oversharing, optimization, and instant gratification, she invites us to reexamine our world, our pasts, and ourselves through the lens of influence. Now a reformed brand strategist, Elefante lays bare her own culpability, sharing what she learned—and what she got wrong. She offers a new take on intentional living and provides a simple practice to deconstruct how the powers-that-be are attempting to modify our behaviors. Before you know it, you’ll be questioning everything from how you take your coffee to how our social institutions are structured. And you’ll learn how to live free from the influences around us—including Elefante herself. The much-needed subversive voice to demystify these times, Elefante will make you angry, make you laugh, and make you think about how you’re really living. Unpretentious, sharply observed, and devil-hearted, Raising Hell, Living Well holds out a hand to help you climb out from under the influence.

Taming the Wild Child

Author : Aaron Lederer
Publisher : Aaron Lederer
ISBN 13 : 9781440101427
Total Pages : 180 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (14 download)

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Download or read book Taming the Wild Child written by Aaron Lederer and published by Aaron Lederer. This book was released on 2008-10 with total page 180 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Is your child impossible to control? Have you tried time-out, behavior modification, therapy, medication, all to no avail? If so, you need to read Taming the Wild Child. Psychoanalyst Aaron Lederer has devoted his entire professional life to developing ways for mothers to rescue their out-of-control children. He calls his method "corrective communication" and says, "If you want to change a child, just change the way you communicate with him." In Taming the Wild Child, you will discover how mothers use Lederer's corrective communication to bring about dramatic improvement in their children within just four to six weeks. After a few months, their children typically turn completely around. When you apply these techniques, you will see: Why your child needs some time free of pressure to change. Why punishing backfires and rewarding fails. How to talk to your child in ways that make him want to cooperate. How to get your child to assist in his own recovery. Inspiring and motivating, Taming the Wild Child is filled with real-life examples of harrowing experiences and amazing transformations that will give you the hope and the confidence you need to bring your own lost child home.

Cat Out of Hell

Author : Lynne Truss
Publisher : Melville House
ISBN 13 : 1612194435
Total Pages : 139 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (121 download)

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Download or read book Cat Out of Hell written by Lynne Truss and published by Melville House. This book was released on 2015-03-03 with total page 139 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Acclaimed New York Times bestselling author Lynne Truss (Eats, Shoots & Leaves) is back with a mesmerizing and hilarious tale of cats and murder For people who both love and hate cats comes the tale of Alec Charlesworth, a librarian who finds himself suddenly alone: he’s lost his job, his beloved wife has just died. Overcome by grief, he searches for clues about her disappearance in a file of interviews between a man called "Wiggy" and a cat, Roger. Who speaks to him. It takes a while for Alec to realize he’s not gone mad from grief, that the cat is actually speaking to Wiggy . . . and that much of what we fear about cats is true. They do think they’re smarter than humans, for one thing. And, well, it seems they are! What’s more, they do have nine lives. Or at least this one does – Roger’s older than Methuselah, and his unblinking stare comes from the fact that he’s seen it all. And he’s got a tale to tell, a tale of shocking local history and dark forces that may link not only the death of Alec’s wife, but also several other local deaths. But will the cat help Alec, or is he one of the dark forces? In the deft and comedic hands of mega-bestseller Lynne Truss, the story is as entertaining as it is addictive” (The Sunday Telegraph) – an increasingly suspenseful and often hysterically funny adventure that will please cat lovers and haters alike. And afterwards, as one critic noted, “You may never look at a cat in quite the same way again” (The Daily Mail).

Dreams of Hell

Author : Gray Holborn
Publisher : Independently Published
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 202 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (269 download)

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Download or read book Dreams of Hell written by Gray Holborn and published by Independently Published. This book was released on 2021-07-08 with total page 202 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: I finally have everything I've always wanted: I'm part of a team with my brother and best friend, I'm spending my free time on missions hunting down evil monsters, and I'm about to turn nineteen, the age we fully come into our power. Hell, I even get to hang out with my favorite hellhound, Ralph, on my downtime. But it all still just feels empty, pointless even. Guilt is a b*tch. After last month's disaster, the members of Team Six abandoned Guild Headquarters, leaving me alone to deal with the crippling shame for my part in the events that night. And I can't say that I blame them. If I could, I'd run away from all of this pain too. Attacks on campus mixed with dreams that leave me feeling more exhausted than refreshed, have me yearning for our simple life back home in the cabin and wishing that we never joined The Guild at all. Losing focus when I'm supposed to be hunting down all the things that go bump in the night doesn't instill much confidence in my friends either. If I want to secure an official spot on a team, I need to snap out of my grief and become the protector I've always dreamed of becoming. And I need to do it quickly. Attacks are happening in record numbers and the fate of our world as we know it is quite literally on our shoulders. Just when I'm starting to put the pieces of my life back together, Atlas and his team come barreling back into town to stir everything up again. Six is just as alluring as ever, only now I know their big secret. The question is, do I follow my gut and protect them, or do I do what I've been trained to do and never look back? My family and The Guild may have trained me well when it comes to decapitating monsters, but they didn't train me for the one thing more difficult in this line of work...figuring out who exactly I can trust. ◆◆◆Dreams of Hell is Book Three in The Protector Guild series and it does end on a cliffhanger. Max's story is a slow-burn why choose / poly / reverse harem urban fantasy series. Get ready for action, spice, and intrigue.◆◆◆

Living Hell

Author : Catherine Jinks
Publisher : HarperCollins
ISBN 13 : 0547487878
Total Pages : 277 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (474 download)

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Download or read book Living Hell written by Catherine Jinks and published by HarperCollins. This book was released on 2010-04-12 with total page 277 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What happens when a single moment changes everything? For seventeen-year-old Cheney, life on earth exists only in history books. He and more than one thousand other people have known life only aboard the Plexus spacecraft: self-contained, systematic, and serene. But that was before the radiation wave. Now Plexus has suddenly turned on them, becoming a terrifying and unrecognizable force. As the crew dwindles under attack, Cheney and his friends need to fight back before the ship that’s nurtured them for so long becomes responsible for their destruction.

Your Best Life Now

Author : Joel Osteen
Publisher : FaithWords
ISBN 13 : 0446510939
Total Pages : 270 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (465 download)

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Download or read book Your Best Life Now written by Joel Osteen and published by FaithWords. This book was released on 2007-09-03 with total page 270 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In this remarkable New York Times bestseller, Joel Osteen offers unique insights and encouragement that will help readers overcome every obstacle in their lives.

Stairway to Hell

Author : Rick Jones
Publisher : Chick Publications
ISBN 13 : 0937958301
Total Pages : 210 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (379 download)

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Download or read book Stairway to Hell written by Rick Jones and published by Chick Publications. This book was released on 1988 with total page 210 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Did you hear about 17-year-old Kelsey Megliola? It happened early on a Sunday morning in July, 2013. One minute Kelsey was walking down a deserted country road in rural Michigan around 2 a.m., thinking her whole life was ahead of her. The next minute she lay dead in the highway, hit by a 19-year-old drunk driver. A neighbor said a party had taken place late Saturday night in the woods. Empty beer cans still littered the grass. Teenagers like Kelsey are being destroyed in record numbers. Street drugs Prescription drugs Alcoholism STDs Crime Deadly video games Cyber bullying Pornography Shootings Peer pressure AIDS The occult. They are all taking a heavy toll. And let's not forget teen killers like car crashes, accidents, and suicides. All of this destruction should not surprise us. Young people are being brainwashed by an evil world system and primed for ruin from a very young age. Sadly, by the time many parents discover there's a problem, it's often too late. THERE IS HOPE After working with troubled teens for over six years, Rick Jones learned the basic methods the devil's world system is using to wipe out teens by the millions. Because he saw so many teenage lives miraculously transformed, he felt compelled to record all the most important details of what brought about these transformations. In a compassionate, yet honest and straightforward way, this book "speaks their language," and grabs their attention and clearly show them the one and only way to escape the stairway to hell, and live a blessed and productive life. After they finish this short, easy-reading book, teens will look at life through different eyes, and have seriously changed attitudes. And best of all, they will know the real cause of their problems... and the solution too. With over 100,000 copies in print, many teens have been rescued after reading this timeless book. If you want to equip your teenagers for what they will face in this world, you must take action now. Give them a book that will equip them to sidestep all the land mines on the stairway to hell. You can be guaranteed they won't get this information in public school. And sadly, many who do go to church aren't getting it there either. Where else will they get this life-saving information, if not from you?

Up to Heaven and Down to Hell

Author : Colin Jerolmack
Publisher : Princeton University Press
ISBN 13 : 0691220263
Total Pages : 336 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (912 download)

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Download or read book Up to Heaven and Down to Hell written by Colin Jerolmack and published by Princeton University Press. This book was released on 2021-04-20 with total page 336 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A riveting portrait of a rural Pennsylvania town at the center of the fracking controversy Shale gas extraction—commonly known as fracking—is often portrayed as an energy revolution that will transform the American economy and geopolitics. But in greater Williamsport, Pennsylvania, fracking is personal. Up to Heaven and Down to Hell is a vivid and sometimes heartbreaking account of what happens when one of the most momentous decisions about the well-being of our communities and our planet—whether or not to extract shale gas and oil from the very land beneath our feet—is largely a private choice that millions of ordinary people make without the public's consent. The United States is the only country in the world where property rights commonly extend "up to heaven and down to hell," which means that landowners have the exclusive right to lease their subsurface mineral estates to petroleum companies. Colin Jerolmack spent eight months living with rural communities outside of Williamsport as they confronted the tension between property rights and the commonwealth. In this deeply intimate book, he reveals how the decision to lease brings financial rewards but can also cause irreparable harm to neighbors, to communal resources like air and water, and even to oneself. Up to Heaven and Down to Hell casts America’s ideas about freedom and property rights in a troubling new light, revealing how your personal choices can undermine your neighbors’ liberty, and how the exercise of individual rights can bring unintended environmental consequences for us all.

Hallucinations from Hell

Author : Gregg Turner
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9781644282205
Total Pages : 288 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (822 download)

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Download or read book Hallucinations from Hell written by Gregg Turner and published by . This book was released on 2021-08-10 with total page 288 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:

Like a Bat Out of Hell

Author : Mick Wall
Publisher : Hachette UK
ISBN 13 : 1409173542
Total Pages : 347 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (91 download)

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Download or read book Like a Bat Out of Hell written by Mick Wall and published by Hachette UK. This book was released on 2017-11-16 with total page 347 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: 'A passionate, pacey tome you should do anything for a copy of' - Kerrang! "I never wanted to be a big star. I just wanted to be the biggest at what I do! Powerful, unstoppable, heavy - when that word still meant something good!" - Meat Loaf, as told to Mick Wall Everything in the story of Meat Loaf is big. From the place he was born (Texas); to the family he was born into (his father weighed 22 stone, his uncle weighed over 40 stone, while Meat Loaf himself weighed 17 stone before he was even in his teens); to the sound he made (a colossal collision between Richard Wagner, Phil Spector and Bruce Springsteen); and of course the records he sold - nearly 50 million in Britain and America alone. From a tumultuous childhood with an alcoholic father to the relentless abusive bullying he endured, nobody could have predicted Meat Loaf's meteoric rise to fame. But when the messianic rock opera Bat Out of Hell was released in 1977, it became one of the biggest albums of all time, selling over 45 million copies worldwide to date. Its release marked the start of a rollercoaster ride of incredible highs and seemingly career-ending lows. By the 80s, Meat Loaf was battling with drug and alcohol addiction and escalating money problems. But just when it seemed like it was all over, the astonishing success of Bat Out of Hell II and the mega-hit 'I'd Do Anything For Love (But I Won't Do That)' marked an extraordinary new wave of success. Now, Mick Wall will bring this extraordinary story up to date, drawing on the hours he spent with Meat Loaf, both in interviews and on tour, as well as offering up a unique insight from those who have known him best.

Welcome to Hell World

Author : Luke O'Neil
Publisher : OR Books
ISBN 13 : 1682192156
Total Pages : 244 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (821 download)

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Download or read book Welcome to Hell World written by Luke O'Neil and published by OR Books. This book was released on 2019-10-01 with total page 244 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When Luke O’Neil isn’t angry, he’s asleep. When he’s awake, he gives vent to some of the most heartfelt, political and anger-fueled prose to power its way to the public sphere since Hunter S. Thompson smashed a typewriter’s keys. Welcome to Hell World is an unexpurgated selection of Luke O’Neil’s finest rants, near-poetic rhapsodies, and investigatory journalism. Racism, sexism, immigration, unemployment, Marcus Aurelius, opioid addiction, Iraq: all are processed through the O’Neil grinder. He details failings in his own life and in those he observes around him: and the result is a book that is at once intensely confessional and an energetic, unforgettable condemnation of American mores. Welcome to Hell World is, in the author’s words, a “fever dream nightmare of reporting and personal essays from one of the lowest periods in our country in recent memory.” It is also a burning example of some of the best writing you’re likely to read anywhere.

The Huge Book of Hell

Author : Matt Groening
Publisher : HarperCollins (UK)
ISBN 13 : 9780007191666
Total Pages : 176 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (916 download)

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Download or read book The Huge Book of Hell written by Matt Groening and published by HarperCollins (UK). This book was released on 2005-03-07 with total page 176 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A second bumper collection of the classic Life in Hell cartoon strips from the 80s and 90s which were the basis for The Simpsons.

A Little Life

Author : Hanya Yanagihara
Publisher : Vintage
ISBN 13 : 0804172706
Total Pages : 833 pages
Book Rating : 4.8/5 (41 download)

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Download or read book A Little Life written by Hanya Yanagihara and published by Vintage. This book was released on 2016-01-26 with total page 833 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • A stunning “portrait of the enduring grace of friendship” (NPR) about the families we are born into, and those that we make for ourselves. A masterful depiction of love in the twenty-first century. NATIONAL BOOK AWARD FINALIST • MAN BOOKER PRIZE FINALIST • WINNER OF THE KIRKUS PRIZE A Little Life follows four college classmates—broke, adrift, and buoyed only by their friendship and ambition—as they move to New York in search of fame and fortune. While their relationships, which are tinged by addiction, success, and pride, deepen over the decades, the men are held together by their devotion to the brilliant, enigmatic Jude, a man scarred by an unspeakable childhood trauma. A hymn to brotherly bonds and a masterful depiction of love in the twenty-first century, Hanya Yanagihara’s stunning novel is about the families we are born into, and those that we make for ourselves. Look for Hanya Yanagihara’s latest bestselling novel, To Paradise.

The Extraordinary Life of Sam Hell

Author : Robert Dugoni
Publisher : Center Point
ISBN 13 : 9781638086901
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.0/5 (869 download)

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Download or read book The Extraordinary Life of Sam Hell written by Robert Dugoni and published by Center Point. This book was released on 2023-04 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Sam Hill always saw the world through different eyes. Born with red pupils, he was called "Devil Boy" or Sam "Hell" by his classmates; "God's will" is what his mother called his ocular albinism. Her words were of little comfort, but Sam persevered, buoyed by his mother's devout faith, his father's practical wisdom, and his two other misfit friends.

Hell of a Book

Author : Jason Mott
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 0593330986
Total Pages : 337 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (933 download)

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Download or read book Hell of a Book written by Jason Mott and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2022-06-28 with total page 337 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: ***2021 NATIONAL BOOK AWARD WINNER*** ***THE NATIONAL BESTSELLER*** Winner of the 2021 Sir Walter Raleigh Award for Fiction, Joyce Carol Oates Literary Prize Finalist, 2022 Chautauqua Prize Finalist, Willie Morris Award for Southern Writing Shortlist, 2021 Aspen Words Literary Prize Shortlist, 2022 Maya Angelou Book Award Shortlist, 2022 Carnegie Medal Longlist A Read With Jenna Today Show Book Club Pick! An Ebony Magazine Publishing Book Club Pick! One of Washington Post's 50 Notable Works of Fiction | One of Philadelphia Inquirer's Best Books of 2021 | One of Shelf Awareness's Top Ten Fiction Titles of the Year | One of TIME Magazine’s 100 Must-Read Books | One of NPR.org's "Books We Love" | EW’s "Guide to the Biggest and Buzziest Books of 2021" | One of the New York Public Library's Best Books for Adults | San Diego Union Tribune—My Favorite Things from 2021 | Writer's Bone's Best Books of 2021 | Atlanta Journal Constitution—Top 10 Southern Books of the Year | One of the Guardian's (UK) Best Ten 21st Century Comic Novels | One of Entertainment Weekly's 15 Books You Need to Read This June | On Entertainment Weekly's "Must List" | One of the New York Post's Best Summer Reading books | One of GMA's 27 Books for June | One of USA Today's 5 Books Not to Miss | One of Fortune's 21 Most Anticipated Books Coming Out in the Second Half of 2021 | One of The Root's PageTurners: It’s Getting Hot in Here | One of Real Simple's Best New Books to Read in 2021 An astounding work of fiction from New York Times bestselling author Jason Mott, always deeply honest, at times electrically funny, that goes to the heart of racism, police violence, and the hidden costs exacted upon Black Americans and America as a whole In Jason Mott’s Hell of a Book, a Black author sets out on a cross-country publicity tour to promote his bestselling novel. That storyline drives Hell of a Book and is the scaffolding of something much larger and more urgent: Mott’s novel also tells the story of Soot, a young Black boy living in a rural town in the recent past, and The Kid, a possibly imaginary child who appears to the author on his tour. As these characters’ stories build and converge, they astonish. For while this heartbreaking and magical book entertains and is at once about family, love of parents and children, art and money, it’s also about the nation’s reckoning with a tragic police shooting playing over and over again on the news. And with what it can mean to be Black in America. Who has been killed? Who is The Kid? Will the author finish his book tour, and what kind of world will he leave behind? Unforgettably told, with characters who burn into your mind and an electrifying plot ideal for book club discussion, Hell of a Book is the novel Mott has been writing in his head for the last ten years. And in its final twists, it truly becomes its title.

Staying Out of Hell

Author : James Alexander Thom
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9780345306654
Total Pages : 0 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (66 download)

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Download or read book Staying Out of Hell written by James Alexander Thom and published by . This book was released on 1985 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: James Alexander Thom, bestselling author of two magnificent historical novels, says about his modern novel, Staying Out of Hell: "Like my character, Scotty Montgomery, I grew up in the idyllic prewar Midwest, was a Marine, and later a journalist appalled by the apparent cheapness of life and the world's casual disregard for human suffering. Like my protagonist, I am unable to reconcile my country's two roles: the citadel of humane idealism, and the leading world merchant of death-dealing weapons. I hope by this novel to awaken our benumbed souls to the awful absurdities with which we live."