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Curses Start Somewhere

Author : Laura Greenwood
Publisher : Drowlgon Press
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 74 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Curses Start Somewhere written by Laura Greenwood and published by Drowlgon Press. This book was released on 2019-08-31 with total page 74 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: All curses start somewhere, and it's not always where you expect. With graduation approaching, Ronnie and Magda need to finish writing their spellbook so they can receive the ultimate reward: a place on Grimalkin Academy's honour roll. But when things start to go wrong, it turns out that more than their friendship is on the line, and if Ronnie can't fix it, the consequences won't be worth thinking about. - Curses Start Somewhere is the prequel to the Grimalkin Academy: Kittens series, which follows Ronnie's daughter, Mona. It is a paranormal academy story featuring fantasy elements, including

Hereditary Curse

Author : Emma L. Adams
Publisher : Emma L. Adams
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 258 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Hereditary Curse written by Emma L. Adams and published by Emma L. Adams. This book was released on with total page 258 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Ilsa Lynn has survived her first few weeks as Gatekeeper between mortal and spirit worlds, but her problems are just beginning. The source of her magic remains as shrouded in mystery as her family's past, while the necromancers are keen to recruit her as one of their own. And then there's River, the tempting faerie-necromancer, placed in charge of her training. Keeping her abilities quiet seems impossible with wraiths haunting her every step, let alone an estranged family member with a secret of his own appearing on the doorstep. When a dark evil sets its sights on her family, it'll take everything Ilsa has to lay the spirit to rest before she ends up six feet under -- permanently. Keywords: urban fantasy, faeries, magic, portal fantasy, folklore, fairy tales, contemporary fantasy, fae urban fantasy series, complete fantasy series, Seelie Court, Unseelie Court, crown, throne, urban fantasy series, British fantasy, ghost mystery, female protagonist urban fantasy, ghosts, post-apocalyptic fantasy, Scotland, action urban fantasy, myths and legends

Breaking Generational Curses

Author : Rhonda Guidry
Publisher : Lulu.com
ISBN 13 : 0557497388
Total Pages : 38 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (574 download)

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Download or read book Breaking Generational Curses written by Rhonda Guidry and published by Lulu.com. This book was released on 2011 with total page 38 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:

Curse on the Land

Author : Faith Hunter
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 0698184491
Total Pages : 352 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (981 download)

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Download or read book Curse on the Land written by Faith Hunter and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2016-11-01 with total page 352 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Set in the same world as Faith Hunter’s New York Times bestselling Jane Yellowrock novels, the second Soulwood novel tells the story of a woman whose power comes from deep within the earth... Before Nell Ingram met skinwalker Jane Yellowrock, she had no one to rely on, finding strength only in her arcane connection to the dark woods around her. But now she has friends in the newly formed PsyLED team to keep her grounded—even if being part of the agency responsible for policing paranormals comes with dangers of its own.... After training at the PsyLED academy, Nell returns home to her woods to find the land feeling sick and restless. And that sickness is spreading. With the help of her team, under the leadership of agent Rick LaFleur, Nell tries to determine the cause. But nothing can prepare them for the evil that awaits: an entity that feeds on death itself. And it wants more....

Fifth Time's A Crisis

Author : Laura Greenwood
Publisher : Drowlgon Press
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 156 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Fifth Time's A Crisis written by Laura Greenwood and published by Drowlgon Press. This book was released on with total page 156 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Enter Grimalkin Academy and discover this complete urban fantasy academy series following best friends Mona and Daphne as they encounter problems of the magical kind - as well as with cats, and their hearts. The kittens are in danger and Mona will stop at nothing to save them. I thought being cured would solve all my problems, instead, it seems to have made them worse. With my kittens in trouble, and the threat of black magic users only getting stronger, I have more than enough on my plate. At least I have my best friend, and my warlocks to lean on for help. - Fifth Time's A Crisis is book five of Grimalkin Academy, an urban fantasy academy series featuring two best friends, lots of kittens, and a low-heat poly romantic subplot. If you enjoy paranormal academy, cute familiars, light-hearted romance, witches, and friendship, you should start the Grimalkin Academy series today. Grimalkin Academy Search Terms & Keywords: urban fantasy, supernatural suspense, fantasy, paranormal, friends to lovers, seeing dead people, coming of age, young adult, paranormal academy, university, school, supernatural academy, forced proximity, fated mates, young adult fantasy, young adult paranormal romance, paranormal romance, urban fantasy romance, new adult fantasy, fantasy romance, romantic fantasy, complete series, magical, slow burn, witches, best friend's brother, teaching assistant, reverse harem, rh, whychoose, poly, low heat, sweet romance, kittens, cats, familiars

Cursed Objects

Author : J. W. Ocker
Publisher : Quirk Books
ISBN 13 : 1683692373
Total Pages : 272 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (836 download)

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Download or read book Cursed Objects written by J. W. Ocker and published by Quirk Books. This book was released on 2020-09-15 with total page 272 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Beware...this book is cursed! These strange but true stories of the world’s most infamous items will appeal to true believers as well as history buffs, horror fans, and anyone who loves a good spine-tingling tale. They’re lurking in museums, graveyards, and private homes. Their often tragic and always bizarre stories have inspired countless horror movies, reality TV shows, novels, and campfire tales. They’re cursed objects, and all they need to unleash a wave of misfortune is . . . you. Many of these unfortunate items have intersected with some of the most notable events and people in history, leaving death and destruction in their wake. But never before have the true stories of these eerie oddities been compiled into a fascinating and chilling volume. Inside, readers will learn about: • Annabelle the Doll, a Raggedy Ann doll that featured in the horror franchise The Conjuring • The Unlucky Mummy, which is rumored to have sunk the Titanic and kick-started World War I • The Dybbuk box, which was sold on eBay and spawned the horror film The Possession • The Conjured Chest, which has been blamed for fifteen deaths within a single family • The Ring of Silvianus, a Roman artifact believed to have inspired J. R. R. Tolkien’s The Hobbit • And many more!

Cursed

Author : Benedict Jacka
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 1101568917
Total Pages : 304 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (15 download)

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Download or read book Cursed written by Benedict Jacka and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2012-05-29 with total page 304 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Dark rituals drag London mage Alex Verus into the center of a conspiracy in this thrilling novel from the national bestselling author of Marked. Since his second sight made him infamous for defeating powerful dark mages, Alex Verus has been keeping his head down. But now he's discovered the resurgence of a forbidden ritual. Someone is harvesting the life-force of magical creatures—destroying them in the process. And draining humans is next on the agenda. Hired to investigate, Alex discovers not everyone on the Council wants him delving any deeper. Struggling to distinguish ally from enemy, he finds himself the target of those who would risk their own sanity for power. Alex still has the advantage of seeing the future—but he might not have a future for much longer.

Cursed

Author : Christina Bauer
Publisher : Monster House Books
ISBN 13 : 1945723963
Total Pages : 311 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (457 download)

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Download or read book Cursed written by Christina Bauer and published by Monster House Books. This book was released on 2019-05-29 with total page 311 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "Another breath-taking book by Christina Bauer! Cursed takes on a new spin about the world of Necromancers and Casters and it is absolutely fantastic." -- Angelic Book Reviews Most days, Elea couldn’t care less about being a witch, even if she does have special powers over spirit and bone. Why bother with incantations when you’re a farm girl? Elea only uses her Necromancer magic to speed up chores and scare off suitors. Everything changes when the evil Necromancer Tsar curses Elea. Now, she only has five years left before she burns as a ghost, tortured for all eternity. They say there’s nothing she can do, but Elea disagrees. Embracing her Necromancer ability, Elea trains as a magical assassin. Her goal? Kill the Tsar before his curse kills her. After years of preparation, Elea’s finally ready to strike. That’s when everything goes horribly wrong. A handsome warlock named Rowan steps up to help. Elea wants him as an ally, but she can’t ignore the mixed-up feelings that come with every one of Rowan’s crooked smiles. An assassination mission is no time to fall in love, but Elea’s heart may have other ideas… "Cursed will take you on an adventure of a lifetime!" - The Avid Reader Perfect for readers who love sword and sorcery filled with magic, necromancy, witches and wizards. This series combines fierce females, paranormal romance and epic fantasy. Enjoy! BEHOLDER series order 1. Cursed 2. Concealed 3. Cherished 4. Crowned 5. Cradled Read all the series from author Christina Bauer: - Angelbound Origins (YA Dark Fantasy) - Angelbound Offspring (YA Dark Fantasy) - Angelbound Worlds (YA Dark Fantasy) - Beholder (YA Dark Fantasy) - Dimension Drift (YA Urban Fantasy ) - Fairy Tales of the Magicorum (YA Urban Fantasy)

Cursed Souls

Author : Fiona Starr
Publisher : FS Romance Press
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 149 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Cursed Souls written by Fiona Starr and published by FS Romance Press. This book was released on 2023-02-04 with total page 149 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: They say two’s company and three’s a crowd… nobody was prepared for a fourth. We thought destroying Damon meant the end of our vampire problem, but with the return of Tobias, we’ve got one living right under our roof. Add to that the souls of those missing students—they call to me at all hours. We assumed they were dead and gone, but they are still here, and I have no idea what they want from me. All I know is by helping them I help Tobias, and time is running out. The return of Van’s twin is not exactly the joyous occasion one might imagine. After all these years apart, the four of them need time to reconnect, but that doesn’t do anything to quell the pull I feel every single time I look at Tobias. If there’s a solution to this, it’s just beyond my reach. I thought my heart was full with the love of three men, but it seems there’s room for more—if only he felt the same. The hunt for the wolves continues, and fighting between the factions within the Society of Ancient Magic is reaching a fever pitch. The danger to all I hold dear has never been more apparent, and don’t get me started on what’s left of my family. I’ve never been so unsure about the future, and I am afraid I won’t be able to save them all. ★ Series Complete ★ ★★★★★ "I can't get enough of Joely and her men!" ★★★★★ "So many twists and turns!" ★★★★★ "Amazing series!" Society of Ancient Magic is a 6-book reverse harem paranormal romance series which features witches, vampires, wolves, ghosts, steamy scenes, language, and death. This book is not a standalone. Mind the cliff! Find out more at https://www.bingeworthyfiction.com Reading Order: Dark Arts Over Hexed Witch Wars Cursed Souls Broken Spells Magic Reclaimed

The Curse of the Golden Gato

Author : Bob Shumaker
Publisher : AuthorHouse
ISBN 13 : 146707036X
Total Pages : 224 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (67 download)

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Download or read book The Curse of the Golden Gato written by Bob Shumaker and published by AuthorHouse. This book was released on 2005-10-13 with total page 224 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What had she just told me? My gift could develop into something very powerfulthat I should be careful who I share this withwith the gift comes responsibility. What did all this mean? In Book One of the Schmooney Trilogies, The Secret of the Enchanted Forest, Austin Cook discovered that his special gift was the ability to communicate with animals. In Book Two, The Spirit of the Turquoise Necklace, he needed to decipher the mysterious message of a beautiful Indian princess in order to save an entire town from toxic pollution. Now, Austin and his sister Katie have returned to Mountview for the summer to work at the Nature Center. But when Austins special friend Sarah, a Schmooney,gets sick, they must help her find the cure in the mountains of North Carolina. What they dont know is that their paths will cross with the very dangerous Calvin and Woodrow Garner, two brothers searching for gold in the very same mountains, seeking the answer to The Legend of the Golden Gato. Come along on the adventure of a lifetime in the third book of The Schmooney Trilogies. Austin, Katie, Uncle Steve and Amy are in a race against time to not only save Sarah, but to outwit the menacing Garner brothers while threatened with avalanches and deadly mountain lions! Will they be able to save Sarah in time? Will they escape the clutches of the Garner brothers? And will they find out the truth of The Curse of the Golden Gato? The adventure continues

The Cauldron's Curse

Author : Alicia Rades
Publisher : Crystallite Publishing LLC
ISBN 13 : 1948704609
Total Pages : 610 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (487 download)

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Download or read book The Cauldron's Curse written by Alicia Rades and published by Crystallite Publishing LLC. This book was released on 2021-11-13 with total page 610 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: There’s only one witch who can break this curse. Nadine The coven has discovered my secret, and the council demands my help to bring magic back to Octavia Falls. The priestesses have tasked me with hunting down the Oaken Wands—powerful relics that could restore magic. I must obey the council; otherwise, the entire coven is at risk. There’s a cursed cauldron that could lead us to one of the Wands, but it’s already fallen into the wrong hands... Lucas A magical drug called nightshade has hit the streets and put the coven in danger. I suspect it's connected with the mystery of the coven's magic, but the details don't add up. I've taken it upon myself to discover the truth. I'm not the only person looking for answers. Nadine has launched an investigation of her own, and I must work with her despite the fact we’re no longer together. I desperately want her back, but the Reaper’s Shadow curse still stands. A prophecy has been given. If we don’t mend our relationship, it could mean the end of the coven forever. ** Return to Miriam College in the spell-binding third book of the College of Witchcraft series! Read auras, raise the dead, and solve the coven’s mysteries in this paranormal academy romance series. This series takes place in the Hidden Legends Universe, along with the Academy of Magical Creatures series, the University of Sorcery series, and the Prison for Supernatural Offenders series. The Hidden Legends universe features college-aged protagonists attending magical academies, dual points-of-view, disabled and diverse main characters, and steamy, empowering romances. Each series stands on its own and can be read in any order. This is a full-length novel over 400 pages. Recommended reading age 18+ Stir the cauldron and order today!

I Curse You with Joy

Author : Tiffany Haddish
Publisher : Diversion Books
ISBN 13 : 1635769450
Total Pages : 271 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (357 download)

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Download or read book I Curse You with Joy written by Tiffany Haddish and published by Diversion Books. This book was released on 2024-05-07 with total page 271 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Tiffany Haddish is back with her highly anticipated new essay collection, I Curse You With Joy. It’s been a minute since readers last sat down with Tiffany Haddish. Since The Last Black Unicorn, Haddish has catapulted to A-List fame as the breakout star of Girls Trip. She’s walked the Oscars red carpet, released a hit stand-up special with Netflix, and made history as the first black female comedian to host Saturday Night Liveand Shark Week. But it hasn’t been all VIP parties and free diving with apex predators. In these humorous and heartfelt essays, Tiffany gets real about the highs and lows of life. Believe it or not, there was a time when Tiffany didn’t totally know who Tiffany was. Before she found her groove, she was on stage dressed like her snobby airline coworkers telling halfhearted dick jokes. She tanked. It took a fake penis, some help from friends, and a little encouragement from Bob Saget, but eventually Tiffany figured out Tiffany. I Curse You With Joy celebrates all the lessons she learned along the way—the joy and the pain. Tiffany reckons with the legacy of her childhood trauma, the challenges of being a black woman in the entertainment industry, and her bittersweet reunion with her estranged father after nearly twenty years apart. And don’t worry, she’s got plenty of advice to share, too. I Curse You With Joy is Tiffany Haddish unfiltered. (We know what you’re thinking...how much more unfiltered can she get?) These essays lay it all bare, bringing readers into Tiffany’s inner circle where joy, honesty, humor, and heart are the order of the day.

Catching A Wizard

Author : Laura Greenwood
Publisher : Drowlgon Press
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 120 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Catching A Wizard written by Laura Greenwood and published by Drowlgon Press. This book was released on with total page 120 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Enter Grimalkin Academy and discover this complete urban fantasy academy series following best friends Mona and Daphne as they encounter problems of the magical kind - as well as with cats, and their hearts. A fake relationship is the only way for Daphne to get what she wants, so long as she doesn't lose her heart. Heartbroken and rejected, Daphne has to find a way to carry on if she wants to stay at Grimalkin Academy. With her brother still intent on finding the old family spell, and his best friend still trying to get Daphne to agree to a date, she has her hands full. Even if what she really wants to do is make a vampire forgive her. Can they find the spell? And can Daphne convince Heath to forgive her? - Catching A Wizard is book eight of Grimalkin Academy, an urban fantasy academy series featuring two best friends, lots of kittens, and a low-heat poly romantic subplot. If you enjoy paranormal academy, cute familiars, light-hearted romance, witches, and friendship, you should start the Grimalkin Academy series today. Grimalkin Academy Search Terms & Keywords: urban fantasy, supernatural suspense, fantasy, paranormal, friends to lovers, seeing dead people, coming of age, young adult, paranormal academy, university, school, supernatural academy, forced proximity, fated mates, young adult fantasy, young adult paranormal romance, paranormal romance, urban fantasy romance, new adult fantasy, fantasy romance, romantic fantasy, complete series, magical, slow burn, witches, best friend's brother, teaching assistant, reverse harem, rh, whychoose, poly, low heat, sweet romance, kittens, cats, familiars

Initiated

Author : Amanda Yates Garcia
Publisher : Hachette UK
ISBN 13 : 1538763079
Total Pages : 290 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (387 download)

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Download or read book Initiated written by Amanda Yates Garcia and published by Hachette UK. This book was released on 2019-10-22 with total page 290 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Smoke Gets in Your Eyes meets Women Who Run With The Wolves in this "gorgeously written, fierce, political, personal, and deeply inspiring" (Michelle Tea) memoir about finding meaning, beauty, and power through a life in witchcraft. An initiation signals a beginning: a door opens and you step through. Traditional Wiccan initiates are usually brought into the craft through a ceremony with a High Priestess. But even though Amanda Yates Garcia's mother, a practicing witch herself, initiated her into the earth-centered practice of witchcraft when she was 13 years old, Amanda's real life as a witch only began when she underwent a series of spontaneous initiations of her own. Descending into the underworlds of poverty, sex work, and misogyny, Initiated describes Amanda's journey to return to her body, harness her power, and create the magical world she longed for through witchcraft. Hailed by crows, seduced by magicians, and haunted by ancestors broken beneath the wheels of patriarchy, Amanda's quest for self-discovery and empowerment is a deep exploration of a modern witch's trials - healing ancient wounds, chafing against cultural expectations, creating intimacy - all while on a mission to re-enchant the world. Peppered with mythology, tales of the goddesses and magical women throughout history, Initiated stands squarely at the intersection of witchcraft and feminism. With generosity and heart, this book speaks to the question: is it possible to live a life of beauty and integrity in a world that feels like it's dying? Declaring oneself a witch and practicing magic has everything to do with claiming authority and power for oneself, of taking back our planet in the name of Love. Initiated is both memoir and manifesto calling the magical people of the world to take up their wands: stand up, be brave, describe the world they want, then create it like a witch.

Cursed Witches

Author : Humphrey Quinn
Publisher : Rachel Humphrey - D'aigle
ISBN 13 :
Total Pages : 410 pages
Book Rating : 4./5 ( download)

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Download or read book Cursed Witches written by Humphrey Quinn and published by Rachel Humphrey - D'aigle. This book was released on 2020-07-06 with total page 410 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Charlie Howard has been waking up in the middle of The Demon Isle woods with no memory of how he got there, and no recollection of his actions during the night. And if this wasn’t enough to deal with, there’s a new Supernatural Investigator in town, and timed with her arrival is an onslaught of strange sightings and attacks—ones the Howard Witches believe to be a hoax perpetrated by someone on the Isle in order to attract tourists. However, as their investigation unfolds and Charlie, Michael and Melinda, along with the Vampire, William Wakefield, piece together what’s happening, they fear the threat might not only be real, but that they are already too late to control the outcome.

Curse of the Specter Queen (Volume 1)

Author : Jenny Elder Moke
Publisher : Disney Electronic Content
ISBN 13 : 1368066763
Total Pages : pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (68 download)

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Download or read book Curse of the Specter Queen (Volume 1) written by Jenny Elder Moke and published by Disney Electronic Content. This book was released on 2021-06-01 with total page pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A female Indiana Jones meets Tomb Raider when Samantha Knox receives a mysterious field diary and finds herself thrust into a treacherous plot. After stealing a car and jumping on a train, chased by a group dangerous pursuers, Sam finds out what’s so special about this book: it contains a cipher that leads to a cursed jade statue that could put an end to all mankind.

My Life: Cursed or Blessed?

Author : Karla Johnson
Publisher : iUniverse
ISBN 13 : 1475979010
Total Pages : 485 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (759 download)

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Download or read book My Life: Cursed or Blessed? written by Karla Johnson and published by iUniverse. This book was released on 2013-04 with total page 485 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Graduated High School in 1971, three months pregnant. I left my mother's house with my Fiancé. The only thing I took with me were the clothes on my back, the things I read in books, the things my Grandmother taught me which mainly involved cooking and cleaning, the Bible quotes and old folks tales my Grandmother used to say over and over, the few things my mother taught me during her brief and few periods of time into my life, and also a very special gift from God, which was the ability to play any musical instrument I chose to play. I thought I was grown and knew everything. What I didn't know was although I was very smart, I was also very naive. I got married in 1972 and had another baby in 1974. I worked for a police department from 1977 to 1985. I was in the Army National Guard from 1979 to 1985. So many unbelievable things happened to me during that time, both good and bad. So many more bad things happened than good that I started to think my life was cursed for some reason. It started to happen so much that finally I did not want to live any longer.