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Addicted to Life & Death: Memoirs of an EMT & Deputy Coroner

Author : Janice Ballenger
Publisher : Masthof Press & Bookstore
ISBN 13 : 1601261438
Total Pages : 292 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (12 download)

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Download or read book Addicted to Life & Death: Memoirs of an EMT & Deputy Coroner written by Janice Ballenger and published by Masthof Press & Bookstore. This book was released on 2008-10 with total page 292 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When Janice Ballenger joined a volunteer rescue company, she began keeping a journal, and clipping news articles about the calls she responded to. Now, as an EMT and deputy coroner, she has seen, smelled and touched things most people have difficulty just hearing about. With the thought of "There's nothing worse that I can see," she continued her job. The Nickel Mines Amish School shootings in October 2006, changed that, when a milk truck driver shot ten Amish girls, and killed himself. Read her story as one of the few people who entered the schoolhouse with the bodies inside. (286pp. Masthof Press, 2008.)

Pill Head

Author : Joshua Lyon
Publisher : Hachette Books
ISBN 13 : 1401394493
Total Pages : 325 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (13 download)

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Download or read book Pill Head written by Joshua Lyon and published by Hachette Books. This book was released on 2009-07-07 with total page 325 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This compelling, honest book investigates the growing epidemic of prescription painkiller abuse among today's Generation Rx. Through gripping profiles and heartbreaking confessions, this memoir dares to uncover the reality -- the addiction, the withdrawal, and the recovery -- of this newest generation of pill poppers. Joshua Lyon was no stranger to substance abuse. By the time he was seventeen, he had already found sanctuary in pot, cocaine, Ecstasy, and mushrooms -- just to name a few. Ten years later, on assignment for Jane magazine, he found himself with a two-inch-thick bottle of Vicodin in his hands and only one decision to make: dispose of the bottle or give in to his curiosity. He chose the latter. In a matter of weeks he'd found his perfect drug. In the early half of this decade, purchasing painkillers without a doctor was as easy as going online and checking the spam filter in your inbox. The accessibility of these drugs -- paired with a false perception of their safety -- contributed to their epidemic-like spread throughout America's twenty-something youth, a group dubbed Generation Rx. Pill Head is Joshua Lyon's harrowing and bold account of this generation, and it's also a memoir about his own struggle to recover from his addiction to painkillers. The story of so many who have shared this experience--from discovery to addiction to rehabilitation -- Pill Head follows the lives of several young people much like Joshua and dares to blow open the cultural phenomena of America's newest pill-popping generation. Marrying the journalist's eye with the addict's mind, Joshua takes readers through the shocking and often painful profiles of recreational users and suffering addicts as they fight to recover. Pill Head is not only a memoir of descent, but of endurance and of determination. Ultimately, it is a story of encouragement for anyone who is wrestling to overcome addiction, and anyone who is looking for the strength to heal.

Memoirs of an Addicted Brain

Author : Marc Lewis
Publisher : Doubleday Canada
ISBN 13 : 0385669267
Total Pages : 322 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (856 download)

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Download or read book Memoirs of an Addicted Brain written by Marc Lewis and published by Doubleday Canada. This book was released on 2011-10-04 with total page 322 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A gripping, ultimately triumphant memoir that's also the most comprehensive and comprehensible study of the neuroscience of addiction written for the general public. FROM THE INTRODUCTION: "We are prone to a cycle of craving what we don't have, finding it, using it up or losing it, and then craving it all the more. This cycle is at the root of all addictions, addictions to drugs, sex, love, cigarettes, soap operas, wealth, and wisdom itself. But why should this be so? Why are we desperate for what we don't have, or can't have, often at great cost to what we do have, thereby risking our peace and contentment, our safety, and even our lives?" The answer, says Dr. Marc Lewis, lies in the structure and function of the human brain. Marc Lewis is a distinguished neuroscientist. And, for many years, he was a drug addict himself, dependent on a series of dangerous substances, from LSD to heroin. His narrative moves back and forth between the often dark, compellingly recounted story of his relationship with drugs and a revelatory analysis of what was going on in his brain. He shows how drugs speak to the brain - which is designed to seek rewards and soothe pain - in its own language. He shows in detail the neural mechanics of a variety of powerful drugs and of the onset of addiction, itself a distortion of normal perception. Dr. Lewis freed himself from addiction and ended up studying it. At the age of 30 he traded in his pharmaceutical supplies for the life of a graduate student, eventually becoming a professor of developmental psychology, and then of neuroscience - his field for the last 12 years. This is the story of his journey, seen from the inside out.

Mastering the Addicted Brain

Author : Walter Ling, MD
Publisher : New World Library
ISBN 13 : 1608685004
Total Pages : 162 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (86 download)

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Download or read book Mastering the Addicted Brain written by Walter Ling, MD and published by New World Library. This book was released on 2017-07-10 with total page 162 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: For anyone trying to overcome an addiction, living with someone with an addiction, or helping someone with an addiction As most drug and alcohol addicts eventually realize, good intentions alone aren’t enough to break destructive habits. However, addiction can be managed once its true nature is understood. This simple yet profound guidebook takes you step-by-step through the process of building a life after addiction by adopting new behaviors that create lasting change. An internationally renowned psychiatrist, neurologist, and addiction specialist, Dr. Walter Ling has worked with thousands of addicts, their loved ones, and fellow clinicians. His no-nonsense, no-judgment approach, which he calls the “neuroscience of common sense,” advocates holistic methods to prevent relapse and establish new patterns to create a sustainable, meaningful life.

Diary of a Drug Addict

Author : Stephen E. Crockett
Publisher : Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
ISBN 13 : 9781979273862
Total Pages : 114 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (738 download)

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Download or read book Diary of a Drug Addict written by Stephen E. Crockett and published by Createspace Independent Publishing Platform. This book was released on 2017-10-29 with total page 114 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A heroin addict looks back over a life of misery and addiction. From his earliest days experimenting with "gateway drugs" to his spiraling descent, through every available illegal drug - into the hell of heroin addiction. He gets pushed by his addiction to heroin from a manageable addiction that he can control, through the loss of everything he owns and holds near and dear to his life. Heroin becomes his ever-present companion and over the years it turns him into a homeless, jobless heroin addict living under a downtown highway bridge. At his lowest, suicide seems to be the only way out, but when he finally hits rock bottom he realizes that in the mess, the muck and the blood that his life has become, salvation may still be possible. If only he can stay away from the needle and be as successful sober as he had been as a drug addict.

In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts

Author : Gabor Maté, MD
Publisher : North Atlantic Books
ISBN 13 : 1583944206
Total Pages : 522 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (839 download)

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Download or read book In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts written by Gabor Maté, MD and published by North Atlantic Books. This book was released on 2011-06-28 with total page 522 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A “thought-provoking and powerful” study that reframes everything you’ve been taught about addiction and recovery—from the New York Times–bestselling author of The Myth of Normal (Bruce Perry, author of The Boy Who Was Raised as a Dog). A world-renowned trauma expert combines real-life stories with cutting-edge research to offer a holistic approach to understanding addiction—its origins, its place in society, and the importance of self-compassion in recovery. Based on Gabor Maté’s two decades of experience as a medical doctor and his groundbreaking work with people with addiction on Vancouver’s skid row, this #1 international bestseller radically re-envisions a much misunderstood condition by taking a compassionate approach to substance abuse and addiction recovery. In the same vein as Bessel van der Kolk’s The Body Keeps the Score, In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts traces the root causes of addiction to childhood trauma and examines the pervasiveness of addiction in society. Dr. Maté presents addiction not as a discrete phenomenon confined to an unfortunate or weak-willed few, but as a continuum that runs throughout—and perhaps underpins—our society. It is not a medical “condition” distinct from the lives it affects but rather the result of a complex interplay among personal history, emotional and neurological development, brain chemistry, and the drugs and behaviors of addiction. Simplifying a wide array of brain and addiction research findings from around the globe, the book avoids glib self-help remedies, instead promoting a thorough and compassionate self-understanding as the first key to healing and wellness. Dr. Maté argues persuasively against contemporary health, social, and criminal justice policies toward addiction and how they perpetuate the War on Drugs. The mix of personal stories—including the author’s candid discussion of his own “high-status” addictive tendencies—and science with positive solutions makes the book equally useful for lay readers and professionals.

Great Leaders Live Like Drug Addicts

Author : Michael Brody-Waite
Publisher : Simon and Schuster
ISBN 13 : 1948677326
Total Pages : 230 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (486 download)

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Download or read book Great Leaders Live Like Drug Addicts written by Michael Brody-Waite and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2020-05-26 with total page 230 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What if you learned that to lead well, you’d need to live like a drug addict? During treatment for drug addiction, Michael Brody-Waite learned three principles that became the difference between life and death: Practice rigorous authenticity Surrender the outcome Do uncomfortable work Leaving rehab, Michael entered the workplace where he was shocked to see most business leaders doing what he had been taught would kill him. He began to see striking similarities between drug addiction and what he calls “mask addiction.” Leaders everywhere were hiding their authentic selves in order to get what they wanted. They were doing things like: Saying yes when they could say no Hiding their weaknesses Avoiding difficult conversations Holding back their unique perspectives Instead of chasing drugs, leaders were chasing professional, financial, and social success from behind a mask—to the detriment of themselves and the people around them. Thanks to his recovery, Michael’s three principles gave him an unlikely competitive advantage throughout his career, resulting in a level of success unexpected for a “drug addict.” In Great Leaders Live Like Drug Addicts, Michael explains what drug addicts do to recover and provides a step-by-step program you can use to break free from your mask addiction to thrive in both work and life. He equips you with the tools you need to live and lead mask-free—tools to enable you to stop following others, lead yourself, and become one of the dynamic, growing, authentic leaders this world desperately needs.

Addicted to the Monkey Mind

Author : Jean-Francois Benoist
Publisher : Power-On Coaching IncorporatedDBA Pakalana Publishing
ISBN 13 : 9780692978597
Total Pages : 368 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (785 download)

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Download or read book Addicted to the Monkey Mind written by Jean-Francois Benoist and published by Power-On Coaching IncorporatedDBA Pakalana Publishing. This book was released on 2018-09-14 with total page 368 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Addicted to the Monkey Mind offers a toolbox of practical skills to shift self-sabotaging, programmed ways of thinking. J.F. Benoist, a visionary thought leader in the fields of addiction treatment and personal development, uses the journeys of two relatable characters to teach you how to develop a powerful new mindset and finally break the cycle of debilitating habits.

An Addict Within

Author : Mark Lipp
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9780989700016
Total Pages : 358 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 ( download)

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Download or read book An Addict Within written by Mark Lipp and published by . This book was released on 2014-03-19 with total page 358 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This is not another story about an addict. It is the "Other Side of the Story"; that of the family. The mothers, fathers, sisters, and brothers of the addict and the damage caused, the chaos caused, and the broken relationships that happen within the family, because of the love and simultaneous hate for the addict. A man whose family led a very affluent, and prestigious life in their community. Then life changed for him. His oldest daughter, at the age of 13, exhibited the masochistic behavior known as "cutting" and self-mutilation". From there it escalated to pills, marijuana, alcohol and cocaine through her high school years of addiction. Then, into her early 20's, college and then into the dark world of heroin, exotic dancing, drug dealing, overdoses, 8 rehabs, multiple detoxes, felonies and multiple arrests. During the pages of this book and through a father's eyes, Mark takes you on his almost 10 year journey of his feelings, motivations, the lengths a father will go through to save his daughter from herself and a life of pain and suffering, and the real life lessons learned in bringing his life and that of his families back in control. From "shame" to "sane", from "insanity" to "sanity". Mark realized that his daughter's addiction had consumed his life and Mark realized that he had An Addict Within him also. The addict within, was trying to "fix" his daughter at any and all cost. His personal life was as out of control as his daughter's. AN ADDICT WITHIN is a book about how to "fix" your life so that a family plagued with a loved one's disease of addiction can learn to adjust and live a happy life. The book depicts are very real, harsh and compelling tale which is a must read for anyone who has an addict in their family. It is a book of change and hope. Even if your addict does not get clean, you can still learn to live your life and be happy.

Addicted to Lust

Author : Samuel L. Perry
Publisher : Oxford University Press
ISBN 13 : 0190844221
Total Pages : 289 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (98 download)

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Download or read book Addicted to Lust written by Samuel L. Perry and published by Oxford University Press. This book was released on 2019-04-02 with total page 289 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Few cultural issues alarm conservative Protestant families and communities like the seemingly ubiquitous threat of pornography. Thanks to widespread access to the internet, conservative Protestants now face a reality in which every Christian man, woman, and child with a smartphone can access limitless pornography in their bathroom, at work, or at a friend's sleepover. Once confident of their victory over pornography in society at large, conservative Protestants now fear that "porn addiction" is consuming even the most faithful. How are they adjusting to this new reality? And what are its consequences in their lives? Drawing on over 130 interviews as well as numerous national surveys, Addicted to Lust shows that, compared to other Americans, pornography shapes the lives of conservative Protestants in ways that are uniquely damaging to their mental health, spiritual lives, and intimate relationships. Samuel L. Perry demonstrates how certain pervasive beliefs within the conservative Protestant subculture unwittingly create a context in which those who use pornography are often overwhelmed with shame and discouragement, sometimes to the point of depression or withdrawal from faith altogether. Conservative Protestant women who use pornography feel a "double shame" both for sinning sexually and for sinning "like a man," while conflicts over pornography in marriages are escalated by patterns of lying, hiding, blowing up, or threats of divorce. Addicted to Lust shines new light on one of the most talked-about problems facing conservative Christians.

The Self Help Addict

Author : Daniel Gefen
Publisher : Evolve Global Publishing
ISBN 13 : 1981930450
Total Pages : 231 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (819 download)

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Download or read book The Self Help Addict written by Daniel Gefen and published by Evolve Global Publishing. This book was released on 2018-03-16 with total page 231 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Break free from the self-help cycle and join the world of successful leaders. IN THIS GAME CHANGING BOOK YOU WILL LEARN: - How self doubt, procrastination and indecision create a cycle of self-help addiction - Why people invest in self-help books, courses, events and come out still feeling unaccomplished - How you can make your fears your friend and achieve anything your heart desires - The importance of always taking responsibility for what happens in your life - How much abundance there is in this world and that there is enough money, love and happiness for everyone to have a lifetime supply - How to go from a consumer to a creator - The art of taking action, because without action nothing gets done - How to become accountable so you avoid putting things off - The power of decisiveness and how to avoid feeling overwhelmed - The secret to getting high and staying high (without drugs) - Why you have already won - How the real hero, that you have searched so long and hard for, is you.

Life with Hope

Author : Marijuana Anonymous
Publisher : Marijuana Anonymous
ISBN 13 : 0976577933
Total Pages : 232 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (765 download)

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Download or read book Life with Hope written by Marijuana Anonymous and published by Marijuana Anonymous. This book was released on 2020-06-02 with total page 232 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Similar to The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, Life with Hope thoroughly explains the 12 Steps and 12 Traditions as they relate to marijuana addicts and those with cannabis use disorder. This is an essential resource for anyone seeking recovery through Marijuana Anonymous (MA). "How can we tell you how to recover? We cannot. All we can do is share with you our own experiences and recovery through the Twelve Steps of Marijuana Anonymous." Similar to The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, Life with Hope thoroughly explains the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions as they relate to individuals with cannabis use disorder. The text includes the 12 Steps and the 12 Traditions, fifteen personal stories from Marijuana Anonymous members, and the section, A Doctor's Opinion about Marijuana Addiction. Life with Hope is an essential resource for the marijuana addict and for anyone with a cannabis use disorder who is seeking recovery through Marijuana Anonymous (MA). The text is ideal for newcomers, people who are in active addiction, and anyone interested learning more about how marijuana addiction affects people’s lives.

Total Addiction

Author : Kate Russo
Publisher : Springer Science & Business Media
ISBN 13 : 3642304818
Total Pages : 188 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (423 download)

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Download or read book Total Addiction written by Kate Russo and published by Springer Science & Business Media. This book was released on 2012-08-01 with total page 188 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Seeing a total solar eclipse is often described as a once-in-a-lifetime experience. However, for many who have experienced totality, once-in-a-lifetime is simply not enough. They want more, and are willing to go to great lengths often at great expense to repeat the experience. What is it like to experience totality? What is it about the experience that motivates these eclipse chasers? Is there an eclipse chaser personality? Can eclipse chasing actually be described as an addiction? This book describes the people who dedicate their lives to chasing their dream.

Addicted to You

Author : Krista Ritchie
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 0593549473
Total Pages : 385 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (935 download)

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Download or read book Addicted to You written by Krista Ritchie and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2022-08-16 with total page 385 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The TikTok sensation Addicted to You, now in a print edition with special bonus material! She's addicted to sex. He's addicted to booze...the only way out is rock bottom. Fall in love with Lily and Lo in this edgy new adult romance set in a world of lust, fame, swoon-worthy men, and friendships that run deeper than blood in this special edition with bonus materials—in print only! No one would suspect shy Lily Calloway's biggest secret. While everyone is dancing at college bars, Lily stays in the bathroom. To get laid. Her compulsion leads her to one-night stands, steamy hookups and events she shamefully regrets. The only person who knows her secret happens to have one of his own. Loren Hale's best friend is his bottle of bourbon. Lily comes at a close second. For three years, they've pretended to be in a real relationship, hiding their addictions from their families. They've mastered the art of concealing flasks and random guys that filter in and out of their apartment. But as they sink beneath the weight of their addictions, they cling harder to their destructive relationship and wonder if a life together, for real, is better than a lie. Strangers and family begin to infiltrate their guarded lives, and with new challenges, they realize they may not just be addicted to alcohol and sex. Their real vice may be each other.

Addiction

Author : June Ariano-Jakes
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9780986701320
Total Pages : 298 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 (13 download)

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Download or read book Addiction written by June Ariano-Jakes and published by . This book was released on 2016-04-04 with total page 298 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Addiction: A Mother's Story follows the 23 year heroin and cocaine addiction of her deeply loved son through the eyes of his mother. It includes stories of all the various "players" that make up the world of drug use and the dramatic consequences of drug addiction within a family.

Might Bite

Author : Patrick Foster
Publisher : Bloomsbury Publishing
ISBN 13 : 1472992148
Total Pages : 257 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (729 download)

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Download or read book Might Bite written by Patrick Foster and published by Bloomsbury Publishing. This book was released on 2022-02-03 with total page 257 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: 'An electrifying account of gambling addiction ... compelling' The Times 'Searingly honest ... should be in the hands of anyone who has eyed a bet' Daily Mail 'A remarkable piece of work' The Cricketer 'Compulsive' The i 'An in-depth testimony' Daily Telegraph 'An extraordinary story ... vital stuff' Adrian Chiles, BBC Radio 5 Live 'A no-holds-barred journey through gambling addiction and into the hope of recovery' Paul Merson 'Patrick's story will stop you in your tracks' Sam Billings, England cricketer The unputdownable story of a life shattered by a secret gambling addiction – and an uplifting tale of recovery. With a foreword by Marcus Trescothick. For more than 12 years, Patrick Foster lived a double life. Turning 31, a popular and sociable young teacher and former professional cricketer, he had a lovely girlfriend and a supportive family. But he was hiding a secret and debilitating gambling addiction from even those closest to him. Huge bets had led to huge debts, thousands of lies, and consequences for his mental health that pushed him to the edge of the platform at Slough station, where he was moments from taking his own life in March 2018. That month Patrick had turned a £30 bet into £28,000, then lost £50,000 on a single horse, Might Bite, in the Cheltenham Gold Cup, watching the race in a silent classroom as his students undertook a mock exam in front of him. In his desperation, he had taken out every possible loan, and borrowed money from family, friends and even the parents of children he taught. Although his life was unravelling around him, he could not stop. You might think that this is just one man's story. But problem gambling affects one in 200 people in the UK alone. Hundreds lose their lives annually as a result. The industry is worth more than £14 billion. Might Bite is a shocking, cautionary tale of just how easy it is to fall victim to the insidious lure of 'winning big'. And of how recovery is possible from the depths of addiction, no matter how inescapable it seems. 'As a society, we are only just getting to grips with gambling addiction. Patrick Foster is a trailblazer. His work will help many.' Marcus Trescothick

Addicted to Dysfunction

Author : Benita Anne Tyler
Publisher :
ISBN 13 : 9780985696412
Total Pages : 228 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (964 download)

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Download or read book Addicted to Dysfunction written by Benita Anne Tyler and published by . This book was released on 2012-07 with total page 228 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Abandoned, left alone and feeling abandoned by the men who were supposed to love her. Dysfunctional young love weaved its way throughout the chapters of her life causing heartache and pain. Addicted to him, them, and bad choices were her plight as she tried to become released. She knew her relationship goals with God and man were compromised; she had to learn to live life out loud despite everything. No longer willing to be part of the walking wounded stuck in life. Nearly destroyed but God never left her side. He sustained her throughout her life journey. Five life lessons freed her to become the confident beloved daffodil she is today and who God always intended her to be.