i am neurotic

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Publisher : William Morrow Paperbacks
ISBN 13 : 9780061791475
Total Pages : 0 pages
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Book Synopsis i am neurotic by : Lianna Kong

Download or read book i am neurotic written by Lianna Kong and published by William Morrow Paperbacks. This book was released on 2009-10-13 with total page 0 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: "Hand-Washers Unite, Online" - Rolling Stone "Does it make me neurotic that I find this site immensely soothing to read? Soothing " - Scott Lamb, Buzzfeed You can′t get through the day without checking to see if your front door is locked three times. You take exactly two tablespoons of cream in your coffee which must be swirling while you pour or else it just doesn′t take right. The worst part is that you have to do all your neurotic habits discretely because you don′t want people to know. You′re not alone though. iamneurotic.com is a collection of anonymously submitted neuroses revealing the habits that we take care to hide from others. While sitting in the bathroom stall waiting for everyone to leave, Lianna Kong realized her own neurosis: she can′t use the bathroom when other people are around. I am neurotic was born. What started as a blog where Lianna and her friends could share and joke about their own neuroses turned into a form of confessional therapy for others. People eager to unburden themselves of their hidden habits began to anonymously confess their neuroses and in turn learned they were not the only ones to sniff their floss or avoid the cracks in the sidewalk. I am neurotic congregates the best neuroses from the website and unseen submissions accompanied by photographs. The result is a book that will demonstrate how neurotic behavior is highly amusing, shocking at times, and ultimately a great human equalizer.

It's Ok to Be Neurotic

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Publisher : Adams Media
ISBN 13 : 9781593370251
Total Pages : 326 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (72 download)

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Book Synopsis It's Ok to Be Neurotic by : Frank Bruno

Download or read book It's Ok to Be Neurotic written by Frank Bruno and published by Adams Media. This book was released on 2003-11 with total page 326 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: At last, quick relief for the chronic worrywart. A neurosis exists if an individual suffers chronic anxiety that is out of proportion to reality. More than 20 million people suffer from some type of neurosis, and they're looking for answers.

BE GLAD YOU'RE NEUROTIC

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Total Pages : 242 pages
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Book Synopsis BE GLAD YOU'RE NEUROTIC by : LOUIS E. BISCH

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i am neurotic

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Publisher : Harper Collins
ISBN 13 : 0061943126
Total Pages : 237 pages
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Book Synopsis i am neurotic by : Lianna Kong

Download or read book i am neurotic written by Lianna Kong and published by Harper Collins. This book was released on 2009-09-25 with total page 237 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Based on the popular, hilarious website of the same name, I am Neurotic is a smorgasbord of anonymous confessions and wacky photographs that reveal people’s deepest neuroses. Author Lianna Kong has collected the best neuroses from the blog, as well as previously unreleased submissions, demonstrating how neurotic behavior is highly amusing, shocking at times, and ultimately a great human equalizer.

The Neurotic's Guide to Avoiding Enlightenment

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Publisher : Outskirts Press
ISBN 13 : 1478700432
Total Pages : 172 pages
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Book Synopsis The Neurotic's Guide to Avoiding Enlightenment by : Chris Niebauer, Ph.D.

Download or read book The Neurotic's Guide to Avoiding Enlightenment written by Chris Niebauer, Ph.D. and published by Outskirts Press. This book was released on 2014-03-10 with total page 172 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Has self-improvement really improved the self? More than ever people are on a quest for self-improvement and enlightenment. People are "watching" their egos or losing their egos in order to find peace of mind or to get along better with others. And yet, the more we try to lose our ego, the more of it there is to lose. The more we try to make peace, the more we find conflict. It is exactly what happens when we try not to think of the number 3 and that is all we can think about. Our efforts seem to have the opposite effect and this is due to the way the left side of the brain processes information. Neuroscience discovered that the left brain makes up elaborate stories and convincing explanations. It is the left brain that makes up the most elaborate and convincing story of all, the story of who you think you are. And the more we try to get out of this story, the deeper we find ourselves in it because it is the function of the left brain to work on the law of opposition. Try not to be anxious and that's exactly what happens. Try not to worry and you will be flooded with anxious thoughts. And the same is true for self-improvement. The more we try to improve our story, the more the story needs to be improved. The left brain excels at these games even when it plays by pretending not to play. If I said that all attempts at self-improvement are futile, how would you respond? Would you reflexively think I'm wrong? Is there any way not to play these games of the left brain? Which part of your brain do you think is asking this question? This book was written for the ordinary person who has an extraordinary curiosity for who they are, how thoughts work and why they cannot control their thoughts. It is a practical guide that uses examples from my kids, favorite movies and TV shows from the 80s and 90s along with simple exercises so you can see for yourself if any of this is on track. While no special knowledge of neuroscience is required, you may understand many of the examples if you've seen an episode or two of Star Trek or Seinfeld. While this work is based on the teachings of Alan Watts and Eckhart Tolle it integrates the findings of modern neuroscience which surprisingly reveals a similar message. It is the desire for enlightenment that is the biggest block to happiness and peace, in fact, it is the only block. It is not until one gives up the quest to find oneself, improve oneself or be more spiritual, that one can ever find the peace they are looking for. And it is not your ego that gives up this quest, it is you. For more info please see my blog at http://worriedbuddha.com/

Neurosis and Human Growth

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Publisher : Routledge
ISBN 13 : 1136341293
Total Pages : 392 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (363 download)

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Book Synopsis Neurosis and Human Growth by : Karen Horney

Download or read book Neurosis and Human Growth written by Karen Horney and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2013-09-13 with total page 392 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In Neurosis and Human Growth, Dr. Horney discusses the neurotic process as a special form of the human development, the antithesis of healthy growth. She unfolds the different stages of this situation, describing neurotic claims, the tyranny or inner dictates and the neurotic's solutions for relieving the tensions of conflict in such emotional attitudes as domination, self-effacement, dependency, or resignation. Throughout, she outlines with penetrating insight the forces that work for and against the person's realization of his or her potentialities. First Published in 1950. Routledge is an imprint of Taylor & Francis, an informa company.

Magnesium in the Central Nervous System

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Publisher : University of Adelaide Press
ISBN 13 : 0987073052
Total Pages : 354 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (87 download)

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Book Synopsis Magnesium in the Central Nervous System by : Robert Vink

Download or read book Magnesium in the Central Nervous System written by Robert Vink and published by University of Adelaide Press. This book was released on 2011 with total page 354 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The brain is the most complex organ in our body. Indeed, it is perhaps the most complex structure we have ever encountered in nature. Both structurally and functionally, there are many peculiarities that differentiate the brain from all other organs. The brain is our connection to the world around us and by governing nervous system and higher function, any disturbance induces severe neurological and psychiatric disorders that can have a devastating effect on quality of life. Our understanding of the physiology and biochemistry of the brain has improved dramatically in the last two decades. In particular, the critical role of cations, including magnesium, has become evident, even if incompletely understood at a mechanistic level. The exact role and regulation of magnesium, in particular, remains elusive, largely because intracellular levels are so difficult to routinely quantify. Nonetheless, the importance of magnesium to normal central nervous system activity is self-evident given the complicated homeostatic mechanisms that maintain the concentration of this cation within strict limits essential for normal physiology and metabolism. There is also considerable accumulating evidence to suggest alterations to some brain functions in both normal and pathological conditions may be linked to alterations in local magnesium concentration. This book, containing chapters written by some of the foremost experts in the field of magnesium research, brings together the latest in experimental and clinical magnesium research as it relates to the central nervous system. It offers a complete and updated view of magnesiums involvement in central nervous system function and in so doing, brings together two main pillars of contemporary neuroscience research, namely providing an explanation for the molecular mechanisms involved in brain function, and emphasizing the connections between the molecular changes and behavior. It is the untiring efforts of those magnesium researchers who have dedicated their lives to unraveling the mysteries of magnesiums role in biological systems that has inspired the collation of this volume of work.

How To Live With A Neurotic Dog

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Publisher : Pickle Partners Publishing
ISBN 13 : 178625672X
Total Pages : 181 pages
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Book Synopsis How To Live With A Neurotic Dog by : Stephen Baker

Download or read book How To Live With A Neurotic Dog written by Stephen Baker and published by Pickle Partners Publishing. This book was released on 2015-11-06 with total page 181 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “The Canine population of the United States is about 25 million. Out of this, about 25 million can be classified as neurotic—a conservative estimate. “For the millions of dog-owners seeking a solution to this distressing problem—” Faced with the complications and contradictions of modern society, today’s dog becomes a neurotic. At every turn, his prime life forces—the need to eat and sleep—are thwarted. Instinct pushes him towards satisfying this hunger; sleep is necessary to infuse him with sufficient strength to get up and eat several times a day. (The average dog may require about 24 hours rest a day.) But environmental factors prevent him from satisfying these desires. Stephen Baker, in this entertaining and delightfully fresh book, offers new help for the perplexed pooch owner. There are chapters on training, feeding and—most important—dressing a neurotic dog. You’ll read about traveling with your pet...and what you can do to eliminate sibling rivalry between dog and your baby. There is a chapter on how to psychoanalyze your dog at home, complete with charts and test batteries. You may not learn a thing, but you’ll be vastly amused. Sly and witty drawings, skillfully done by Eric Gurney, serve to complement and clarify the text that will provide every reader (dog lover or not) with a great deal of dog food for thought.

Neurosis

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Publisher : Routledge
ISBN 13 : 1000062384
Total Pages : 387 pages
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Book Synopsis Neurosis by : Wolfgang Giegerich

Download or read book Neurosis written by Wolfgang Giegerich and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2020-01-06 with total page 387 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Psychoanalysis began over a century ago as a treatment for neurosis. Rooted in the positivistic mindset of the medicine from which it stemmed, it trained its empiricist gaze directly upon the symptoms of the malaise, only to be seduced into attributing it to causes as numerous as there are aspects of human experience. Edifying as this was for our understanding of the life of the psyche, it left the sickness of the soul that was its actual subject matter, the neurosis which it was supposed to be about, out of its purview. The crux of this problem was of a conceptual nature. As psychology increasingly gave up on its constituting concept, its concept of soul, it succumbed to the same extent to treating its patients without an adequate concept of what both it and neurosis were about. Attention was paid to mishaps and traumas, the vicissitudes of development, and the Oedipus complex. But neurosis, according to the thesis of this ground-breaking book, comes from the soul, even is soul; the soul in its untruth. Indeed, both it and the modern field of psychology are successors of the soul-forms that preceded them, religion and metaphysics, with the difference that psychology's reluctance to recognize and take responsibility for its status as such has been matched by the neurotic soul's clinging to obsolete metaphysical categories even as the often quite ordinary life disappointments of its patients are inflated with absolute importance. The folie à deux has been on a massive scale. Owing their provenance to the supplement they each provide the other, psychology and neurosis are entwined in a Gordian knot, the cutting of which requires insight into the logic that pervades both. Taking up this sword, Giegerich exposes and critiques the metaphysics that neurosis indulges in even as he returns psychology to the soul, not, of course, to the soul as some no longer credible metaphysical hypostasis, but as the logically negative life of the mind and power of thought. Using several fairy tales as models for the logic of neurosis, he brilliantly analyses its enchanting background processes, exposing thereby, in a most lively and thoroughgoing manner, the spiteful cunning by which the neurotic soul, against its already existing better judgement, betrays its own truth. Topics include the historicity of neurosis, its soulful purpose as a general cultural phenomenon, its internal logic, functioning, and enabling conditions, as well as the Sacred Festival drama character of symptomatic suffering, the theology of neurosis, and ‘the neurotic’ as the figure of modernity's exemplary man. A collection of vignettes descriptive of various kinds of neurotic presentation routinely met with in the consulting room is also included in an appendix under the heading, ‘Neurotic Traps.’

The Neurotic Notebook

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Publisher : Andrews McMeel Publishing
ISBN 13 : 1524869171
Total Pages : 208 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (248 download)

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Book Synopsis The Neurotic Notebook by : Lena Friedrich

Download or read book The Neurotic Notebook written by Lena Friedrich and published by Andrews McMeel Publishing. This book was released on 2021-01-05 with total page 208 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A collection of 100 witty and visually striking one-liners for our changing times. The Neurotic Notebook playfully explores the relationship between the meaning of words and their visual forms. While each page stands on its own, read together they form the confessions of a college-ruled notebook, lost in the digital age. Engaging, witty, and lighthearted, The Neurotic Notebook reports its journey from self-doubt to self-affirmation. A surprising mix of graphic design, humor, and self-help, The Neurotic Notebook will appeal to lovers of riddles and creative design.

Self-Analysis

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Publisher : Routledge
ISBN 13 : 1136342486
Total Pages : 314 pages
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Book Synopsis Self-Analysis by : Horney, Karen

Download or read book Self-Analysis written by Horney, Karen and published by Routledge. This book was released on 2013-09-13 with total page 314 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: First Published in 1999. Psychoanalysis first developed as a method of therapy in the strict medical sense. Freud had discovered that certain circumscribed disorders that have no discernible organic basis-such as hysterical convulsions, phobias, depressions, drug addictions, functional stomach upsets --can be cured by uncovering the unconscious factors that underlie them. In the course of time disturbances of this kind were summarily called neurotic. Therefore humility as well as hope is required in any discussion of the possibility of psychoanalytic self-examination. It is the object of this book to raise this question seriously, with all due consideration for the difficulties involved.

Unified Protocol for Transdiagnostic Treatment of Emotional Disorders

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Publisher : Oxford University Press
ISBN 13 : 0190686022
Total Pages : 209 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (96 download)

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Book Synopsis Unified Protocol for Transdiagnostic Treatment of Emotional Disorders by : David H. Barlow

Download or read book Unified Protocol for Transdiagnostic Treatment of Emotional Disorders written by David H. Barlow and published by Oxford University Press. This book was released on 2017-11-17 with total page 209 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Leading therapists and researchers have come to understand that many psychological disorders share common features and respond to common therapeutic treatments. This deepened understanding of the nature of psychological disorders, their causes, and their symptoms has led to the development of new, comprehensive treatment programs that are effective for whole classes of disorders. Unified Protocol for Transdiagnostic Treatment of Emotional Disorders is one such program. Designed for individuals suffering from emotional disorders, including panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, posttraumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, and depression, this program focuses on helping you to better understand your emotions and identify what you're doing in your responses to them that may be making things worse. Throughout the course of treatment you will learn different strategies and techniques for managing your emotional experiences and the symptoms of your disorder. You will learn how to monitor your feelings, thoughts, and behaviors; confront uncomfortable emotions; and learn more effective ways of coping with your experiences. By proactively practicing the skills presented in this book-and completing the exercises, homework assignments and self-assessment quizzes provided in each chapter, you will address your problems in a comprehensive and effective way so you can regulate your emotional experiences and return to living a happy and functional life.

The Neurotic's Notebook

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Publisher : Hassell Street Press
ISBN 13 : 9781013460760
Total Pages : 104 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (67 download)

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Book Synopsis The Neurotic's Notebook by : Mignon McLaughlin

Download or read book The Neurotic's Notebook written by Mignon McLaughlin and published by Hassell Street Press. This book was released on 2021-09-09 with total page 104 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This work has been selected by scholars as being culturally important and is part of the knowledge base of civilization as we know it. This work is in the public domain in the United States of America, and possibly other nations. Within the United States, you may freely copy and distribute this work, as no entity (individual or corporate) has a copyright on the body of the work. Scholars believe, and we concur, that this work is important enough to be preserved, reproduced, and made generally available to the public. To ensure a quality reading experience, this work has been proofread and republished using a format that seamlessly blends the original graphical elements with text in an easy-to-read typeface. We appreciate your support of the preservation process, and thank you for being an important part of keeping this knowledge alive and relevant.

Principles and Practice of Child Psychiatry

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Publisher : Springer Science & Business Media
ISBN 13 : 9780306311314
Total Pages : 534 pages
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Book Synopsis Principles and Practice of Child Psychiatry by : Stella Chess

Download or read book Principles and Practice of Child Psychiatry written by Stella Chess and published by Springer Science & Business Media. This book was released on 1978-05-31 with total page 534 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Stella Chess's many admirers throughout the world have long looked forward to the day when she would produce her own textbook of child psychiatry. They will not be disappointed in this thoughtful and per ceptive account of the principles and practices of the subject, written in collaboration with Dr. Hassibi. It has all the hallmarks we have come to recognize as distinctive of the Chess approach to child psychiatry-gentle yet subtle and penetrating, always appreciative of the feelings and concerns of both the children and their parents, well informed and critically aware of research findings but far from over awed by the contributions of science, and above all immensely practi cal. Anyone who wants to know how one of the world's outstanding clinicians appraises what child psychiatry has to offer could do no bet ter than to read this book. Child psychiatry differs from general psychiatry in being con cerned with a developing organism, and it is entirely appropriate that the book begins with an account of child development and of the prin cipal theories put forward to explain it. Chess and Hassibi recognize the importance of theory in organizing ideas and in suggesting expla nations, but they remain skeptical of how far existing theories do in fact account for the outstanding issues in development. They note the limitations of all theories in explaining how development takes place and why individual differences occur in the way they do.

Another Bad-Dog Book

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Publisher : Affinity Systems
ISBN 13 : 9780975304327
Total Pages : 200 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (43 download)

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Book Synopsis Another Bad-Dog Book by : Joni B Cole

Download or read book Another Bad-Dog Book written by Joni B Cole and published by Affinity Systems. This book was released on 2017-01-05 with total page 200 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Self-aware, edgy, and masterfully crafted, this charismatic collection (including some heartbreakers) is for anyone who has ever felt over-attached to a pet, stalked her high school crush, said long goodbyes to loved ones, or tried to talk (and talk and talk) her way through the ups and downs of life. A wonderful new addition to a genre best described as humor that matters. These are roll-on-the-floor-funny, embarrassing and just plain crazy stories that your female friends have told you compiled into one handy book. Except that these stories are well articulated by an imaginative and excellent writer and they have all the guilt, shame and modesty removed from them.

Who Are You, Really?

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Publisher : Simon and Schuster
ISBN 13 : 1501119974
Total Pages : 128 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (11 download)

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Book Synopsis Who Are You, Really? by : Brian R. Little

Download or read book Who Are You, Really? written by Brian R. Little and published by Simon and Schuster. This book was released on 2017-08-15 with total page 128 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This fun, smart read for anyone eager to better understand (and improve) themselves argues that personality is driven not by nature nor nurture—but instead by the projects we pursue, which ultimately shape the people we become. Traditionally, scientists have emphasized what they call the first and second natures of personality—genes and culture, respectively. But today the field of personality science has moved well beyond the nature vs. nurture debate. In Who Are You, Really? Dr. Brian Little presents a distinctive view of how personality shapes our lives—and why this matters. Little makes the case for a third nature to the human condition—the pursuit of personal projects, idealistic dreams, and creative ventures that shape both people’s lives and their personalities. Little uncovers what personality science has been discovering about the role of personal projects, revealing how this new concept can help people better understand themselves and shape their lives. In this important work, Little argues that it is essential to devote energy and resources to creative endeavors in a highly focused fashion, even if it takes away from other components of our well-being. This does not mean that we cannot shift from one core project to another in the days of our lives. In fact, it is precisely that ability to flexibly craft projects that is the greatest source of sustainability. Like learning to walk, forcing ourselves out of balance as we step is the only way in which we can move forward. And it is the only way that human flourishing can be enhanced. The well-lived life is based on the sustainable pursuit of core projects in our lives. Ultimately, Who Are You, Really? provides a deeply personal itinerary for exploring our personalities, our lives, and the human condition.

Barry Sonnenfeld, Call Your Mother

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Publisher : Hachette Books
ISBN 13 : 0316415634
Total Pages : 368 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (164 download)

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Download or read book Barry Sonnenfeld, Call Your Mother written by Barry Sonnenfeld and published by Hachette Books. This book was released on 2020-03-10 with total page 368 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: **A New York Times Editor's Choice selection!** This outrageous and hilarious memoir follows a film and television director’s life, from his idiosyncratic upbringing to his unexpected career as the director behind such huge film franchises as The Addams Family and Men in Black. Barry Sonnenfeld's philosophy is, "Regret the Past. Fear the Present. Dread the Future." Told in his unmistakable voice, Barry Sonnenfeld, Call Your Mother is a laugh-out-loud memoir about coming of age. Constantly threatened with suicide by his over-protective mother, disillusioned by the father he worshiped, and abused by a demonic relative, Sonnenfeld somehow went on to become one of Hollywood's most successful producers and directors. Written with poignant insight and real-life irony, the book follows Sonnenfeld from childhood as a French horn player through graduate film school at NYU, where he developed his talent for cinematography. His first job after graduating was shooting nine feature length pornos in nine days. From that humble entrée, he went on to form a friendship with the Coen Brothers, launching his career shooting their first three films. Though Sonnenfeld had no ambition to direct, Scott Rudin convinced him to be the director of The Addams Family. It was a successful career move. He went on to direct many more films and television shows. Will Smith once joked that he wanted to take Sonnenfeld to Philadelphia public schools and say, "If this guy could end up as a successful film director on big budget films, anyone can." This book is a fascinating and hilarious roadmap for anyone who thinks they can't succeed in life because of a rough beginning.