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Karma Moon--Ghost Hunter

Author : Melissa Savage
Publisher : Crown Books for Young Readers
ISBN 13 : 0593302818
Total Pages : 354 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (933 download)

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Download or read book Karma Moon--Ghost Hunter written by Melissa Savage and published by Crown Books for Young Readers. This book was released on 2021-01-19 with total page 354 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: While staying in a haunted Colorado hotel for her father's ghost-hunting television series, Karma Moon must battle her anxiety, interpret the signs of the universe, and get footage of a real ghost--you know, the usual. Karma Moon is a firm believer in everything "woo-woo," as her dad calls it. So when she asked her trusty Crystal Mystic if the call asking her dad to create a ghost-hunting docuseries was her dad's big break, it delivered: "No doubt about it." Because the universe never gets it wrong. Only people do. Karma and her best friend, Mags, join her dad's Totally Rad film crew at a famous haunted hotel in Colorado over her spring break. Their mission: find a ghost and get it on camera. If they succeed, the show will be a hit, they can pay rent on time, and just maybe, her mom will come back. Unfortunately, staying at a haunted hotel isn't a walk in the park for someone with a big case of the what-ifs. But her dad made Karma the head of research for the docuseries, so she, Mags, and a mysterious local boy named Nyx must investigate every strange happening in the historically creepy Stanley Hotel. Karma hopes that her what-ifs don't make her give up the ghost before they can find a starring spirit to help their show go viral--and possibly even get them a season two. With Melissa Savage's quirky cast of characters and spooky setting underlaid by a touching and relatable struggle against anxiety and grief over her fractured family, Karma Moon--Ghosthunter is bound to charm and delight.

Swagga for the Soul

Author : B. Swagz
Publisher : Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
ISBN 13 : 1098054962
Total Pages : 150 pages
Book Rating : 4.0/5 (98 download)

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Download or read book Swagga for the Soul written by B. Swagz and published by Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.. This book was released on 2021-04-12 with total page 150 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Swagga for the Soul is about dressing your soul (character, attitude) to enhance your outer appearance. It offers guidance from the Lord's perspective according to His Holy word along with B. Swagz personal testimony, including struggles that many in this world may also face such as addiction, abandonment, loneliness, heartache, poverty, anger, fear, anxiety, depression, loss, and much more. Jesus came to save the sick and she is writing for Him to those who are lost and who struggle to inspire them to allow the Lord to work miracles in their lives, just as He did for her.We all have a unique journey containing all sorts of secrets and inner battles and B. Swagz believes that she is purposed by God to write this book as she has experienced all too much darkness in the short life that she has lived while having the courage to share her struggles with the world, i.e., finding her boyfriend dead at age twenty-nine, suffering from depression since age fourteen, struggling with and overcoming an eating disorder for several years, being in two mentally abusive relationships, having two sons with two different fathers, and losing temporary custody of her children. The best part of B. Swagz writings is that she not only writes this book for her audience, she writes it for herself.

A Shadow Falls

Author : Andreas Pflüger
Publisher : Courier Dover Publications
ISBN 13 : 0486837343
Total Pages : 452 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (868 download)

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Download or read book A Shadow Falls written by Andreas Pflüger and published by Courier Dover Publications. This book was released on 2019-10-16 with total page 452 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: “Rare and magnificent.” — Ken Bruen Five years ago, Jenny Aaron was the star member of an elite team charged with tracking Germany's most dangerous criminals — until a shot to the head left her irreversibly blind. Four weeks ago, Aaron tested the new skills that she's acquired in her world of darkness against Ludger Holm, the psychopath who fired that shot. Now she's learned that her worst enemy has left her a legacy of two billion dollars. Although she knows that it's a trap, Aaron realizes that if she is ever to find peace, she must play Holm's deadly game to the bitter end. “Compassionate moments between characters add poignancy, and a subplot involving Aaron potentially regaining her sight intrigues . . . this is a thriller worth reading." — Publishers Weekly “A first-rate thriller.” — The Sunday Times "Jenny Aaron is the blind Sherlock Holmes." — Stefan Ahnhem

Can I Just Hide in Bed 'til Jesus Comes Back?

Author : Martha Bolton
Publisher : NavPress
ISBN 13 : 1624059821
Total Pages : 257 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (24 download)

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Download or read book Can I Just Hide in Bed 'til Jesus Comes Back? written by Martha Bolton and published by NavPress. This book was released on 2017-06-06 with total page 257 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Depression, fear, a sense of unworthiness, and unfulfilled dreams can make women retreat to their beds—figuratively and literally—and refuse to face life. Yet most of the time, hiding in bed makes matters worse. Who needs emotional bedsores? Authors Martha Bolton and Christin Ditchfield gently show women how to climb out from under their emotional bedcovers, face their fears and doubts, and step into the lives God has planned for them. Can I Just Hide in Bed ’til Jesus Comes Back? faces down the fear, depression, and unfulfilled dreams that cripple many women to the point of wanting to crawl in bed—for the rest of their lives. Compiled as a collection of short, mostly humorous and warmhearted stories, it offers readers practical, concrete steps to help them move forward when they are ready. Essays are interspersed with special humor features such as “Top Ten” lists, while “Whenever You’re Ready” sections offer Scriptures, journaling questions, and practical suggestions for “putting your feet on the floor” and “taking a few steps forward.” The book addresses four themes: Facing feelings of fear, anxiety, discouragement, and depression Facing people and relationship issues Facing the pain of grief and loss Facing life—and getting yours back

BRING ‘EM ON

Author : RACHIT GHATE 'MARK’
Publisher : Notion Press
ISBN 13 : 164249836X
Total Pages : 421 pages
Book Rating : 4.6/5 (424 download)

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Download or read book BRING ‘EM ON written by RACHIT GHATE 'MARK’ and published by Notion Press. This book was released on 2018-04-17 with total page 421 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Is living becoming irksome? Are relationships turning sour/unsustainable? Are you at a crossroads, confused, in a Catch-22 situation, in need of counsel and advice? Do you find others unbearable? You aren’t lost/ebbed/withered/a spent force. You are laying your hands on the panacea. Receiving, imbibing, assimilating and implementing all that is contained herein would usher in the transformation. Relevant, situation-centric, situation-specific, contextual, and with value-addition, you will stand strengthened and empowered after going through this book. It does not matter whether you are an upstart or a virtuoso in your chosen area, or if you are confined to working at/from home or are on a globe-trotting spree. You are bound to be caught in circumstances that could be dicey. Who isn’t in need of a helping hand? You would benefit substantially from the doses of motivation, solace, analogies and anecdotes contained herein. Go through the contents and face the vicissitudes with courage. Finally, ‘Bang ’em on’ after you ‘Bring ’em on’!

Bullies, Bastards And Bitches

Author : Jessica Page Morrell
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 1599634325
Total Pages : 298 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (996 download)

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Download or read book Bullies, Bastards And Bitches written by Jessica Page Morrell and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2008-07-14 with total page 298 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Get to Know Your Character's Sinister Side A truly memorable antagonist is not a one-dimensional super villain bent on world domination for no particular reason. Realistic, credible bad guys create essential story complications, personalize conflict, add immediacy to a story line, and force the protagonist to evolve. From mischief-makers to villains to arch nemeses, Bullies, Bastards & Bitches shows you how to create nuanced bad guys who are indispensable to the stories in which they appear. Through detailed instruction and examples from contemporary bestsellers and classic page-turners, author Jessica Page Morrell also shows you how to: • Understand the subtle but key differences between unlikeable protagonists, anti-heroes, dark heroes, and bad boys • Supply even your darkest sociopath with a sympathetic attribute that will engage readers • Set the stage for an unforgettable standoff between your hero and your villain • Choose the right type of female villain—femme fatale, mommy dearest, avenger, etc.—for your story Bullies, Bastards & Bitches is your all-encompassing bad-guy compendium to tapping into any character's dark side.

Every Dog Has a Gift

Author : Rachel McPherson
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 158542899X
Total Pages : 273 pages
Book Rating : 4.5/5 (854 download)

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Download or read book Every Dog Has a Gift written by Rachel McPherson and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2011-10-13 with total page 273 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: BETTY WHITE on EVERY DOG HAS A GIFT: "This book gives us some specific examples of the unique therapy that dogs provide when it is needed most. Enjoy a good read, after which I’m sure you will appreciate your own dog even more.” As anyone who has ever gotten home after a long, hard day and been greeted by their dog and that soulful look of adoration will tell you: Dog love is one of the best kinds of love there is. In Every Dog Has a Gift, founder and executive director of The Good Dog Foundation Rachel McPherson explores the inspiring work that dogs are doing to help humans cope with a wide range of physical, mental, and emotional problems. Millions of dogs around the world are heroes every day. These therapy and service dogs (and often quite ordinary, "uncertified" dogs just like your own): bring their healing presence into hospitals and hospice centers; provide a calm and centering "home base" for autistic children; and serve as the perfect audience for kids who need help practicing and improving their reading skills. In telling these stories, Every Dog Has a Gift pays homage to the gift that each and every dog possesses: the ability to bring the healing power of unconditional love into our lives.

The Difference Maker

Author : John C. Maxwell
Publisher : HarperCollins Leadership
ISBN 13 : 1418534870
Total Pages : 199 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (185 download)

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Download or read book The Difference Maker written by John C. Maxwell and published by HarperCollins Leadership. This book was released on 2006-08-27 with total page 199 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What can make the difference in your life today? How can two people with the same skills and abilities, in the same situation, end up with two totally different outcomes? John C. Maxwell says the difference maker is attitude. For those who have ever wondered what may be separating them from achieving the kind of personal and professional success they’ve always dreamt of, leadership expert Dr. John C. Maxwell knows that it is attitude that colors every aspect of your life. In The Difference Maker, Dr. Maxwell teaches you how to: Shatter common myths about attitude—what it can do for you and what it can’t Overcome the five biggest attitude obstacles Develop an impactful attitude on your career, family, and daily living Your attitude affects everything in your life, and it's one of the few things that you can control. A good attitude doesn't necessarily make good things happen to you, but it sure does help. Or you can easily set yourself up for failure by harboring a bad attitude, undermining your own efforts to succeed. The Difference Maker reveals the skills you need to not only make attitude your biggest asset, but shows you how to maintain that attitude for the rest of your life.

5 Gears Diet

Author : Diana Artene
Publisher : Diana Artene
ISBN 13 : 973014110X
Total Pages : 120 pages
Book Rating : 4.7/5 (31 download)

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Download or read book 5 Gears Diet written by Diana Artene and published by Diana Artene. This book was released on 2013-01-13 with total page 120 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The Solution to Accelerate Fat Loss the Healthy Way! If you have always wondered why other diet plans simply do not work, and you have been looking for a diet solution that really lets you lose fat forever, your search can stop right now!

Ralph Compton Shadow of the Gun

Author : Joseph A. West
Publisher : Penguin
ISBN 13 : 9780451223227
Total Pages : 308 pages
Book Rating : 4.2/5 (232 download)

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Download or read book Ralph Compton Shadow of the Gun written by Joseph A. West and published by Penguin. This book was released on 2008-02-05 with total page 308 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A lawless town lives in the shadow of fear in this western in Ralph Compton's USA Today bestselling series. Tam Elliot founded Eden Creek to be a utopia of peace and prosperity. The town achieved neither, and in despair Elliot took his own life. His daughter Allison rechristened the town Suicide, blaming its folks for its failure. From her hillside house, she collects property dues from the lost souls unfortunate enough to still reside there—and punishes anyone attempting to leave. John McBride came west to start a new life, only to find himself saddled with the moniker “Tenderfoot Kid” after a single gunfight. He purchased a restaurant in Suicide hoping to put his past behind him, but with marauding Apaches, vicious outlaws, and rising tensions between the townsfolk and Allison Elliot, the town is a powder keg waiting to explode—and McBride’s presence just may be enough to light the fuse… More Than Six Million Ralph Compton Books In Print!

Inspiration

Author : Wayne Dyer
Publisher : ReadHowYouWant.com
ISBN 13 : 1458715922
Total Pages : 386 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (587 download)

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Download or read book Inspiration written by Wayne Dyer and published by ReadHowYouWant.com. This book was released on 2009-08-31 with total page 386 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: From a very personal viewpoint, Dyer offers a blueprint through the world of inspiration--a person's ultimate calling.

Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms

Author : No Author
Publisher : FaithWords
ISBN 13 : 0446569313
Total Pages : 258 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (465 download)

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Download or read book Anytime Prayers for Everyday Moms written by No Author and published by FaithWords. This book was released on 2009-12-19 with total page 258 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: What any mom needs on a particular day is as varied as her to-do list, but every mom needs God's wisdom, power, and guidance. Whether asking God for the stamina to simply make it through the day, praying for a child in need, or praising God for the blessings of home and family, this book is a helpful resource to mothers.

Deliberation, Rhetoric, and Emotion in the Discourse on Climate Change in the European Parliament

Author : Vebjørn Roald
Publisher : Eburon Uitgeverij B.V.
ISBN 13 : 9059725530
Total Pages : 138 pages
Book Rating : 4.0/5 (597 download)

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Download or read book Deliberation, Rhetoric, and Emotion in the Discourse on Climate Change in the European Parliament written by Vebjørn Roald and published by Eburon Uitgeverij B.V.. This book was released on 2012 with total page 138 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt:

Spells and Sorcery

Author : S. Usher Evans
Publisher : Sun's Golden Ray Publishing
ISBN 13 : 1311105395
Total Pages : 264 pages
Book Rating : 4.3/5 (111 download)

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Download or read book Spells and Sorcery written by S. Usher Evans and published by Sun's Golden Ray Publishing. This book was released on 2016-10-04 with total page 264 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: From bestselling author S. Usher Evans comes the first book in a young adult clean contemporary fantasy series filled with magical hijinks and mystery. Fans of Tamora Pierce and Sabrina the Teenaged Witch will get caught up in this brilliant series about a supposedly normal teenager who discovers she's magical—and that's just the start of her problems. Lexie Carrigan thought she was a normal, if perhaps a little nerdy, teen. But on her fifteenth birthday, she discovers she's magical. What?! Now the girl obsessed with history books is blowing up her nightstand and wreaking havoc at school. But her Aunt Jeanie and sisters are of little help. They expect her to just "understand" how to use her newfound powers and seem determined to keep her in the dark about nearly everything else - including why they kept this giant secret. So when Gavon, an older, magical man, shows up with all the right answers, Lexie begs him to teach her everything he knows. But the more Lexie learns about just how unique her magic is, the more she begins to wonder if Gavon's appearance wasn't so happenstance—and if he's hiding secrets of his own. One thing's for sure: Being magical might just be the most normal thing about her . Spells and Sorcery is the first book in the Lexie Carrigan Chronicles, a contemporary clean young adult fantasy series about a teenaged witch, her dysfunctional family, and the mysterious magical man who's appearance is anything but convenient. Series Order: Spells and Sorcery Magic and Mayhem Dawn and Devilry Illusion and Indemnity Praise for Spells and Sorcery "I've read a few of S. Usher's books, and, honestly, I think YA is where she shines." ★★★★★ "This story with it’s mixing of teenage angst and magic discovery does it all perfectly." ★★★★★ "It keeps you guessing until things finally fall into place." ★★★★★ "A page turner for sure." ★★★★★ "[Lexie's] a very real girl with very real problems, when whomp! she has to figure out how not to screw up with magic as well." ★★★★★ Search Terms: YA Fantasy, Contemporary Fantasy, Witches, Wizards, High School Magic, Teenage witch, Witch books, Adventure books, Fantasy, Paranormal, Clean Books for Teens, Supernatural Mystery, Paranormal, Clean Fantasy, Clean YA books, Paranormal Academy, witches & wizards, young adult & teen, supernatural suspense, thriller, mystery, spells, witches, fantasy, paranormal fantasy, academy, urban fantasy, school, magic.

The Complete Lexie Carrigan Chronicles

Author : S. Usher Evans
Publisher : Sun's Golden Ray Publishing
ISBN 13 : 1945438339
Total Pages : 1167 pages
Book Rating : 4.9/5 (454 download)

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Download or read book The Complete Lexie Carrigan Chronicles written by S. Usher Evans and published by Sun's Golden Ray Publishing. This book was released on 2020-01-14 with total page 1167 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: From bestselling author S. Usher Evans comes the first book in a young adult clean contemporary fantasy series filled with magical hijinks and mystery. Fans of Tamora Pierce and Sabrina the Teenaged Witch will get caught up in this brilliant series about a supposedly normal teenager who discovers she's magical—and that's just the start of her problems. This box set includes all four books in the spellbinding Lexie Carrigan Chronicles, and is over 1,500 pages of magic, mayhem, and mystery! My name is Lexie Carrigan. I live with my aunt and two sisters in a small town in Florida. Up until my fifteenth birthday, I thought I was fairly normal, perhaps a little on the nerdy side. But then my sister Marie materializes a sandwich in front of me and the truth comes out. I'm magical. My family doesn't seem to think it's a big deal. How can they? My sister Nicole's magic is limited to potions, and my aunt's never been good at showing me anything. And forget asking Marie for help. So when I met this brilliant older guy who also had magic, I thought he might be my saving grace. He has old books and knowledge and seems to know the answer to every one of my questions. Except for one - who is he and why is he so interested in helping me? Here's what readers are saying about The Lexie Carrigan Chronicles: ★★★★★ "I've read a few of S. Usher's books, and, honestly, I think YA is where she shines." Liz Meldon, Paranormal Romance Author ★★★★★ "A wonderfully craftedstory. " Stephanie, Reading is Better with Cupcakes ★★★★★ "It keeps you guessing until things finally fall into place." Sara, Goodreads Reviewer ★★★★★ "As someone who grew up on Sabrina the Teenage Witch, I fell head over heelsfor the Lexie series. " Katrina M., Goodreads Reviewer ★★★★★ "[Lexie's] a very real girlwith very real problems, when whomp! she has to figure out how not to screw up with magic as well." Elizabeth F., Amazon Reviewer Search Terms: YA Fantasy, Contemporary Fantasy, Witches, Wizards, High School Magic, Teenage witch, Witch books, Adventure books, Fantasy, Paranormal, Clean Books for Teens, Supernatural Mystery, Paranormal, Clean Fantasy, Clean YA books, Paranormal Academy, witches & wizards, young adult & teen, supernatural suspense, thriller, mystery, spells, witches, fantasy, paranormal fantasy, academy, urban fantasy, school, magic.

Little Oxford Dictionary of Proverbs

Author : Elizabeth Knowles
Publisher : Oxford University Press
ISBN 13 : 0191084247
Total Pages : 469 pages
Book Rating : 4.1/5 (91 download)

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Download or read book Little Oxford Dictionary of Proverbs written by Elizabeth Knowles and published by Oxford University Press. This book was released on 2016-10-06 with total page 469 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Little Oxford Dictionary of Proverbs features over 2,000 proverbs and sayings from around the world, arranged across 250 subjects - from 'Books' and 'Borrowing' to 'Dreams' and 'Drink'. Each theme has a short introduction giving an overview of the proverbial treatment of the topic and each proverb is accompanied by information on its date, source, and meaning. Not only is this book a pleasure to browse but it is ideal for quick reference with its comprehensive index that makes it easy to find the exact phrase you're looking for. Beautifully produced and designed, it is the perfect gift for anyone who loves language. Drawing on Oxford's ongoing dictionary research and language monitoring, the second edition of this delightful book adds phrases that have come to prominence, or increased in popularity, since publication of the first edition, such as 'Never waste a good crisis' and 'Dress for the job you want, not for the job you have', which add a contemporary flavour to the selection of more traditional English proverbs, and the popular sayings used in the English-speaking world from Asia, Africa, Middle East, and many other cultures. Find phrases on all aspects of life in this fascinating little book.

The Sleepwalkers

Author : Paul Grossman
Publisher : Macmillan + ORM
ISBN 13 : 1429949465
Total Pages : 319 pages
Book Rating : 4.4/5 (299 download)

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Download or read book The Sleepwalkers written by Paul Grossman and published by Macmillan + ORM. This book was released on 2010-10-12 with total page 319 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Berlin, 1932. In the final weeks of the Weimar Republic, as Hitler and his National Socialist party angle to assume control of Germany, beautiful girls are seen sleepwalking through the streets. Then, a young woman of mysterious origin, with her legs bizarrely deformed, is pulled dead from the Havel River. Willi Kraus, a high ranking detective in Berlin's police force, begins a murder investigation. A decorated World War I hero and the nation's most famous detective, Willi also is a Jew. Despite his elite status in the criminal police, he is disturbed by the direction Germany is taking. Working urgently to identify the dead woman and solve the murder, Willi finds his superiors diverting him at every turn, and is forced to waste precious time on a politically-sensitive missing person case. Colleagues seem to avoid him; a man on a streetcar stops him from reading a newspaper over his shoulder; he is uncomfortably aware of being watched. But he persists, and soon enters the dangerous Berlin underworld of debauched nightclubs, prostitutes with secrets to hide, and a hypnotist with troubling connections. As he moves through darkness closer to the truth, Willi begins to understand that much more than the solution to a murder is at stake. What he discovers will mean that his life, the lives of his friends and family, and Germany itself will never be the same The Sleepwalkers is a powerful, dramatic debut thriller of a nation's unstoppable corruption, featuring a good man trapped between his duty to serve and his grave doubts about what, and who, he serves.